When I met my man it was just like you see it in the movies. birds were singing fireworks were poping off and everything. when he kissed me i thought i had died and went to hevan. then soon after getting together he went to jail for 18months. i held him down with all that i had. phone calls, visits, letters, money and everything. when he came home fist day back he hit me for no reason after that it was more hiting, cheating, and stalking. i had to call the cops on the love of my life and have them take him away. it killed me to do it but he would have killed me if i had not. still i love him with all my heart and just want my soulmate back.

A couple years ago I had my heart broken. Me and my boyfriend were together over 8yrs-Ive never been wit any1 that long-he was my heart, my soul, my everything I found out on my birthday that my boyfriend slept with someone else months back.Not only sleeping with them but also getting them pregnant.I didnt find out by him telling me but by finding paternity papers in the mail. Not only did he not apologize right away-the first thing that came out his mouth was she wasnt suppose to send those papers. I was devestated and I will never forget that-EVER!!!!

My brokenhearted story ended in 2004 when I was driving down a street and saw a car that looked similar to my fiancee car and I parked and got out to ask if any one knew who the car belonged to and the guy said it belong a tall big dude so I went into the apartment complex and knocked on all the doors to find my man and when I got to the right door a woman answered and she had a newborn baby in her arms and she told me everything about me and I knew nothing about her and we started arguing and asked him to come out and explain but he stayed in the apartment and said nothing. He was my first lover and made me never want to be with another man until I realized he was a stepping stone to get to my real love.

Growing up, I have my share of boyfriends. Since I was 16, I have always have guys hanging around me. My relationships usually last 6 months to a year, and when they end, I always vow to never go back to the same guy. I said that I would never go back to a guy after we broke up and up until I was 21 I kept my word. I said that I would never date a guy with a baby mama. I know that you all have heard the saying “never said never”, well I have say that so many times. In college, I dated a guy with a kid for a couple weeks. We have our little fling and it ends and I said that I would never date athletes. A couple months after that episode, I met a guy. He was an athlete in high school. He played football, basketball and soccer. He has two kids and baby mama drama. We became friends and that friendship developed into some a relationship. I fell in love with him and his babies. After a few months we broke up and got back together again. I was happy. He was totally different from my father and that was what I wanted the most. I spent most of my spare time on the phone with or talking to him on messenger. He supports me in everything I did. He could not make it to my soccer games but call me before and after the games to know what’s going on. He hated when I would get hurt but still support me. He was always there when I wanted to talk about my family and the things that were going on with them. He was there when I wanted to vent about my father. He was always real and would tell me straight out what he thought of something. He encouraged me in everything I did. And most importantly he was proud of me. He was proud of everything I did. I never heard those words from my father but I heard them from him all the time. Eventually, we have to break up because the long distance and some other issues. He went back to his ex-wife and tried to work things out. When it didn’t work out, he moved on with somebody else and I was still waiting for him. He claimed that I was too good for him and he didn’t want to hurt me but didn’t he realize that I was hurting without him. We tried to remain friends. It has been a couple months and both of us have moved on but nothing has change. I love him and I will always love him. Despite everything I have said about never dating a guy with kids and never going back to a guy, I would give anything to be back with him right now.
Growing up, I have gone through different stages, have had many incidents. There are some incidents that have help in making me who I am today. There are some incidents that I don’t want to remember and some that bring a smile to my face whenever I think about them. There are some people that I wish I have never met and some people who have a certain influence in my life. I have learned to never say never. I have done some things I said that I would never do and if I have a chance, I would do them again. There are some people that have been in my life that I would never want to see again. There are others that I would run straight into their arms if I see them coming. If I have a chance to things over, I wouldn’t have change a thing except letting u go. That’s the only thing I regret. I thank God every day for letting me experience some of the things I said I would never do. God always chose paths that are completely different than the ones we chose for ourselves. He always knows what’s going to happen. One day I’m will be happy again and until then I’ll keep remembering you. One day I will be ready to close that chapter in my life but right now I’m content with remembering what we had.

Its one thing to lie about loving somebody but another to not mean what you say. I was with this guy for two years and to me it seemed to had been a real relationship. I would always hear about girls claiming him but i never believe it because i never in a million years thought that he would do me like that. There was girls that had his picture on their myspace page and when i started going through his phone my mind started wondering. After all the heart-ache and the lies i still loved him and gave him a second chance. I ended up pregnant and the night after i found out he got arrested and is now serving four years in jail. I never got the chance to tell him i was pregnant and when he went to jail that’s when everything fell apart. When i did tell him i was pregnant he instantly denied my son and said that my son wasn’t his. I found out about 5 other woman he was messing with. I found out that when i would go to work and school he would have females at my house around my son while I wasn’t there. I also found out that when i would drop him off at a bar or his moms house he would from there go to other women house. One of his girls met my cousin on myspace and from there they started talking. AND this is the same girl that has his picture on his page talking about how much she love and miss him and he’s her hubby BUT this is the same girl he cheated on me with and my cousin is now going out with. When word got around that i was pregnant he wrote me a letter telling me that I need to go find my babies dad because the months don’t add up and that my son wasn’t having his last name. He was just being rude calling me out my name all these things that he never done before. The same girl he cheated on me with is writing my cousin on myspace telling him to tell me that i need to find my baby dad because he aint the dad and they want a DNA just a lot of faulty stuff. His family and all his friends was coming at me with all that. It broke my heart because i never thought we would end like that. He said things that crushed me and made me feel like i wasn’t a woman. He made me feel like dirt. I felt like the whole time were together was nothing but games and lies. I felt betrayed and to me being betrayed by someone you love hurts more then the lies and the pain they put you through. I learn from my mistakes and i have learned not to ever fall for anyone unless their willing to catch you because the person i fell for let me fall he didn’t even try to catch me. I will never let this happen again. I am the woman i am today because i look at all this as another learned. I have no regrets i now look back at all of that and laugh.

My broken-heart began 4 years ago I has just lost my son two months earlier and I was really depressed when I met him. He cheating on me left and right. One time he told me that if a girl is wants to do this to him, his is going to let her. He was so insecure, he even thought that I was cheating on him with my boss’ son. Three months later, I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t want to tell him because I knew he was going to try and make me have an abortion. I would have to lie and said I made an appointment to have done than when he call me to take me to the appointment I won’t answer. Months later after the baby was born, he had gotten in trouble and got arrested. It was for domestic violence. Turns out he had another girl at his house. See, he always had girls running in and out of his house. Saying that he own a strip club and they were strippers and they work for him. Well, while he was in jail I searched the whole house (I was hoping to find money to help him get out) and I found love letters, pictures, and etc. I have also found some names in a notebook that had my child name in it too. He denied everything. He said that she was crazy. That she thinks he’s her baby daddy. So me being stupid bailed him out. Then I found out I was pregnant again. When I told him, he told me that I ruined his life. That he hated me. After that he moved two hours away. He told me that he had got his own place and everything. I found out last year that not only was still cheating on me, he was living with the girl. The money I was letting him borrow, he was giving it to her. And (now this is the big one) he never ever went to his court date and now I owe the bondsman. After I found out I was so done. He had destroyed me so bad, it was like I wasn’t even myself. I found out two months later that I had undiagnosed postpartum depression. I had had it for 10 months. Now, I have my life back in order. I decided to go back to school. He really haven’t seen them for a year now. The baby is now almost two and don’t even know him. The three year old, always talking about him. I had to forgive him because if I didn’t I would problem still be in bed. Part of the chorus of this song I wrote about him always use to cross my mind, it goes “But I just can’t seem to find a way, to assure myself that I would be okay, I simply need to get away, but I can’t get the nerves to walk away”. Now, I know I can and did walk away from all that drama and even though he wants me back. That is not going to happen because that is one relationship that doesn’t need to be in replay.

My broken heart happened in 2006. I was dating my high school sweetheart when I found out that I could not have children. Once I told him about my situation, our relationship slowly started to fall apart. He began to tell me how I would never be a real woman and how the only thing that I was good for was cooking, cleaning, and lying on my back. This went on until September of 2009, when I woke up and realized that I was more than just some slave born to be nothing better. I am now living in Texas and in September of 2010 I will recieve my degree for Medical Assissting. By him breaking my heart, it only made me stronger.

i was in a serious relationship for a year with my now ex bf
i thought we had a great relationship and we both cared alot about each other
then he got sick and i started to get worried about him
he stopped calling, his voicemail was full, and nobody would pick up at his work
i still kept trying for the longest time
then i decided to google his name and found out he was most likely playing me the whole time
at his job he dealt with highschool kids on a daily basis, i thought he was a great guy
then during our relationship i had been taken advantage of by someone and he was pissed, but he still loved me and we continued to date
when i looked up his name i found out he had convinced 2 other men to help him kidnap a 14 yr old girl which they all had sex with and he tried to pimp her out
he was someone i thought had cared about me and he went and took advantage of this young girl when something similar had happened to me which he got so upset about
i felt so betrayed, i was hurt that my relationship of over a year had meant nothing
also, he was my first love and that made it a lot worse, now it is soo hard to trust a guy or have a serious relationship because i feel they all will end up hurting me somehow

My Broken Heart Happened May 25th 2008. Me And My Ex Fiance Met 4 Months Before That We Were So In Love! It Was Like Love At First Site! Seriously Then One Day When He Was At Work I Went Over To My Dad’s House I Called His Boss And Told Him To Tell My Ex Fiance To Come To My Dad’s House But Instead Of Telling Him They Brought Him Back Home Where Then He Went Swimming & Drowned The Witness Tried Reviving Him, The EMT’s Tried Reviving Him.. They Rushed Him To The Hospital Where He Was Pronounced Dead At 6:07PM… I Couldnt Sleep For Weeks, I Couldnt Eat Neither… Below Is The News Article From His Death & His Obituary

Man Drowns In Pool While Playing With Friends
LAUDERHILL (CBS4) ― A tragic and accidental drowning has claimed the life of a 20-year old man in Lauderhill.

Lauderhill Fire Rescue was called to the Cypress Grove Condominium, located at 4291 NW 19th Street, around 5:30 p.m. Sunday where they found Senat Cajuste lying outside of the pool without a pulse and not breathing.

Rescue crews tried to resuscitate Cajuste and transported him to Plantation General Hospital where he was pronounced dead.

According to Lt. Jeff Levy from Lauderhill police, bystanders said that Cajuste was playing in the pool with his friends when he went under and never came back up. When someone finally noticed him, they removed him from the pool and called 911.

Cajuste, Senat C., born to Cleromene Ortilus and Senat Cajuste Sr. at Saint Marys Hospital on October 3, 1987 in West Palm Beach, FL. He passed away on May 25, 2008 at Plantation General Hospital. As a baby, he came out fighting. Unfortunately, at the age of three, he was given guardianship by his father to his Aunt Selicia Cajuste. A few months later his mother died with his father. He had a wonderful personality. He never liked sadness to surround him. If you would bring sadness around him, he would bless you with his smile in ways you couldn’t help but smile. He didn’t like people to suffer. He would sacrifice himself for others. His love of music, dancing, and laughter left a lasting impression on anyone he encountered. He respected everyone no matter what you would do to him. He always hid his pain to show you that a simple smile is the best care for the heart. He tried to be the best at everything he did with his hands or feet. Throughout all his pain and suffering in this world, he was truly a happy and blessed person. God puts people in your life for a reason… Senat showed us to enjoy life to the fullest. He left behind and cared about Family, A Soul Mate Jessica Socha, and Friends.

about 3 months ago i had been dating the first white boy ive ever been with his name was Tj and i was really in love for the first time he was there for me everyday told me he loved me even when i woudnt tell him back in the beginning of the relationship i brushed him off alot but when we got more seriouse i really gave him my all my family had a yard sale one day he was their and right befor it ended he left with his cousin he didnt call me for 3 days after that which was weird so i called his house his cousin answer said he went back to newyork and hung up on me..i thought it was just payback for how we started off..but thats a cruel way for payback i never really got the closure i neede so now i just tell myself he left and went to his babymama to try and make myself feel better :(

The one time my heart was truly broken actually occurred over the period of a six year relationship. I started out just messing around with this older guy when and after about a year or two we fell in love. We had phones together. Other females started calling in the middle of the night and like most men he just said they were friends. After about three years of us being together I got pregnant. I was so happy but when I told him it was like my world came crashing down. He had the audacity to ask me by who and what i was going to do about it because he did not need anymore children. He had already had four with this one female. He said if I decided to keep it that i would never see him again. So because I thought I could not be without him I agree to get an abortion even thought It was my happiest moment ever. Listening to my unborn child’s heartbeat hit me hard not to mention the sonogram. After I had the abortion I became very depressed and need him to be near all the time so he moved in with me.One would think that we would be happy after he got what he wanted but about nine months after he moved in with me he started cheating on me with this other chick and unknowingly I was picking him up from her house when he said his friend stayed in the building. Also by this time I had gotten his named tattooed on my lower back. He kept trying to tell me he loved me and that he would leave her alone but it was all lies. He continued to mess with her so I put him out and he stayed with her. Every time they fought I was stupid enough to be there for him and pick him up. I felt like captain save a hoe. So i found the strength to move on. And to this day he still tries to get me back when it seems like im really happy with someone else. Tells me he changed and that he is ready for marriage and a family. But I know it is just lies like always.

Matthew 24
1And Jesus went out, and departed from the temple: and his disciples came to him for to shew him the buildings of the temple.
2And Jesus said unto them, See ye not all these things? verily I say unto you, There shall not be left here one stone upon another, that shall not be thrown down.
3And as he sat upon the mount of Olives, the disciples came unto him privately, saying, Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the end of the world?

((( The disciples understood that Jesus was talking about the Futrue the endtime which is what we seeing right now before our eyes if you do have eyes to understand whats going to happen)))

Matthew24:4-51
4And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.
5For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.

(((See what Jesus just said? He said watch out from those calling themselves Christian because they never keep the Ten commandment thats going to get you into the Kingdom of Heaven. Do you know when you go to chruch on Sunday, you worship Satan , not just that but you worship the Sun god.Do you know that Saturday the 7th day(Sabbath) is the True Worship day for Jesus?Then you have these fake Sunday Pastor lying to your face while taken your rent or bill money away before you go into the Lake of Fire. I kin you not , when you watch these fake SundayPastor out there or on T.V notice that they never open their bible to to show you, but lying to your face about everything that has nothing to do with the word of God. Then you have some fake Pastors out there too calling themselves Jesus on T.V. That what Jesus meant when He say watch out for those they say I am Christ. But I will show you more from the bible. Just watch out for those fake pastors that will Jesus you to death and they never tell you the true from the bible. But they rather tell yous lies)))

Matthew24:6-51
6And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.
7For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
8All these are the beginning of sorrows.

((( Now you see the weak small Counties like North Korea noe got nukes and talking about boming the U.S and Iran Got some big stuff. And all these small countise raising up big with firing arms and talkinf big stuff.. Then you have this swine ful out there which came from the goverment ad planng one take you to jail because you wont take the H1N1 shots.. You know the people who made the H1N1 wont even take the shot. That sould told you some right there. It going to get worster that that before the Great Tribulation)))

Matthew24:9-51
9Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name’s sake.
10And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.

((( Now watch when you tell somebody who being going to church on Sunday and you Know that Sabbath which is Saturday is the 7th on the week , and a true worship day. That Sunday going Church boy or girl will try they best to kill you or make you look bad.))))

Matthew24:11-51
11And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.
12And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

((( Look what is going on with the people now days. If you look at a perosn in a wrong way ,you will get kill. Look what is going on everyday on the news and around you now. Then these fake Sunday Pastor(Devil Worshiper) dont even care about people who needs help and living a dream life while you or somebody else getting throwing out of their home because these fake pastor talk you into getting all your life saving to them and now somebody is living in the street stilling believing the lie thinking maybe i didnt give enough and that why i,m on the street.. then it going to get to the point that your own family member will hate you once you tell them about the truth from the bible not from T.D Fakes.)))

Matthew24:13
13But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

(((Guess what? You not save to you go though Great Tribulation frist and die for Christ because you love Him and Keep His Commadments till Jesus returns. But If you be so bless enough once God find out the you die for Him and keeping the Commandment and you didnt take the make of the beast. Gues what now? Now you saved from Gods wrath. That is the mean of save when you endure to the end wha tChrist Jesus was talking about .)))

Matthew24:14-51
14And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come.
15When ye therefore shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, stand in the holy place, (whoso readeth, let him understand:)

((( This is the part that we all have to be on the look out for. We going to fine out about the Adomination of Desolation. Now Jesus telling us to go back to the Old Testament and read the book of Daniel to find out about this Adomination of Desolation.)))

Daniel7:1-8

In the first year of Belshazzar king of Babylon Daniel had a dream and visions of his head upon his bed: then he wrote the dream, [and] told the sum of the matters.
Dan 7:2 Daniel spake and said, I saw in my vision by night, and, behold, the four winds of the heaven strove upon the great sea.
Dan 7:3 And four great beasts came up from the sea, diverse one from another.
Dan 7:4 The first [was] like a lion, and had eagle’s wings: I beheld till the wings thereof were plucked, and it was lifted up from the earth, and made stand upon the feet as a man, and a man’s heart was given to it.
Dan 7:5 And behold another beast, a second, like to a bear, and it raised up itself on one side, and [it had] three ribs in the mouth of it between the teeth of it: and they said thus unto it, Arise, devour much flesh.
Dan 7:6 After this I beheld, and lo another, like a leopard, which had upon the back of it four wings of a fowl; the beast had also four heads; and dominion was given to it.
Dan 7:7 After this I saw in the night visions, and behold a fourth beast, dreadful and terrible, and strong exceedingly; and it had great iron teeth: it devoured and brake in pieces, and stamped the residue with the feet of it: and it [was] diverse from all the beasts that [were] before it; and it had ten horns.
Dan 7:8 I considered the horns, and, behold, there came up among them another little horn, before whom there were three of the first horns plucked up by the roots: and, behold, in this horn [were] eyes like the eyes of man, and a mouth speaking great things .

(((The first beast the lion with eagle’s wing’s represents the Babylon doing the time of King Nebuchadnezzar to his son King Belshazzar time , and were the frist Genitle Kings who ruled in this world from 605 to 562 B.C.

The 2nd beast is the bear with three rib on his mouth represents Medo Persia from Darius the Mede to Darius III, the Persian which is known today as Russia

The 3nd beast the leopard represents the Greeks empire.The fiur heads on this leopard represents the same four generals that inherited the kingdom.

The 4th beast represents Rome. The head represents all the emperors of Rome from Octavian to Romulus Agustalus. The (10) horns represents the menthat tried to restore Rome after its fall..

The fourth beast was dresdful and terrible and ten horns and was different from all the other beast before it. In Daniel7:7-8, this beast also had another little horn that rose plucked up three of the first horns.

This little represents all the religious leaders from the first one to the coming of Jesus.

Before we can even discuss the ten horns on this beasts , and the little horn, before which three of the first ten were destroyed, we must identify the head on which the horns sets,and the beast itself. This beast , the Roman empire, first put the Italian peninsula in order by waging war against the other communities that had settled on it, most of which had their own cultures and laws. The largest and most organized tribe, other than the Roman townships, were the Samnities. As the Romans continued their wars of expansion against the smaller communities, they would have minor clashes with the Smnities from time to time however , no major battles developed from them.

Finally the Romans captured Naples, and the Samnities stuck back. War ensued. There were defeats and victories for both sides.Long, hard campaigns and truces did not last. Most of the smaller tribes in the mountainous areas of the peninsular Italy, sided with the Samnities, as did many emies to the Greek city-states along the coast. The tribe of Southernn Italy encombined force with the Etruscans and with the Gauls of Northern Italy.
By 290 B.C., the Samnities had been defeated, then the Etruscans, and later the Gauls.

Most of the Greek city-states in the peninsula were brought into the Roman state, some as subjects, other as allies. After a few more battles, and even two defeats in 280 B.C., the Romans finally prevailed. They quickly subjugated all the remaining independent communities. The entire Italian peninsula was now a confederation including about two hundred autonomous states, among which Rome held supreme power. Roman, now being in total control of three to four million inhabitants and many powerful armies, set its sights beyond its borders. After some military defeats, the romans finally conquered outside enemies, such as the Gauls, Carthaginans and other srounding neighbors. Rome grew ans expanded in territory and power. In 64 B.C., under the leadership of Pompey, Rome conquered Syria, the kingdom of the north. Thus they put an end to the dynasty started by Alexander the Great’s geneal , Seleucus.

At that time Rome and Egypt were on friendly terms, but as the years passed, power struggles took place within the Roman state. Winning out over pompey and his son and several other, was Julius Caesar, who was appointed sole dictator.Caesar made many reforms, and enemies , and was later assassinated on the 15th of March, 44 B.C., in conspiracy led by Marcus Junius Brutus .The citizens of Rome turned against the conspirators, vary leader, Mark Anthony, who spend most of his time with his mistress, Cleopatra, the Queen of Egypt. While Mark Anthony was in Egypt making his own plans, Octavian, who became the first Roman emperor, rose to power and established his supreme rule in Italy and in the western and central provinces. A civil war broke out between Octavian and Mark Anthony. The war ended in 31 B.C. with Octaian the victor. Anthony and Cleopztra committed suicide , and Egypt became a Roman Province, thus bringing to an end the Kingdom of the South, which had been ruled over by Alexander’s general Ptolemy. With the fall of Egypt went lat vestige of the once great Greek empire.Octavian was given the title Augustus, and from that time on,Rome was no longer called called dictator, but Emperor, which was the head of the fourth beast. With the head, a succession of emperors in place, the Roman empire enjoyed quiet order and internal peace, and was in control from 31 B.C to 235 A.D.

After 235 A.D, chaos started to set in. First from internal corruption among high officials, which weakened the empire, then pressure fromoutside nations, over which they once had control. with an increasing number of civil wars, and Roman generals fighting against each other , the empire could no longer stop the advances of outside forces. Because of these internal and external problems , Rome reverted to totalitarianism, and that’s when cruel treatment of the public set in. The suffering became unbearable.

Because of excessive cruelty , Romans started to turn to a religion that stressed love and charity. It promised redemption , resurrection, and in the after life, happiness unattainable on earth. Unitl it became worldly with the exercise of power, Christianity, to them meant alienation from life,Constantine I(called ”The Great), rose to power, he supported Christianity.As soon as Christian sabbath day were enacted. Constantine, in 321 A.D., prohibited all business on that day, except necessary agriciltural labor. Constantine died in 337 A.D., receiving a Christian baptism before his death.

Rome was not able to stop its outside attackers. It finally collapsed in 476 A.D., when its last emperor, Romulus Agustalus was deposed by the Herulians under the leadership of Odoacer, the first of the Germatic tirbes to sack ruled the Roman state. I used the word “state” because the empire had long since fragmented and Rome had lost control of the world.

After the fall of the empire , the Christian church stepped in , and for at least 1000 years gave Europe a measure of unity. The Pope , which had little or no power under the Roman emperors, had grown to be more powerful than the barbarian kings who tried to recreate the Roman empire.The Pope claimed his authority descended from the apostle Peter, to whom Jesus had said,”Thou art Peter and upon this rock I will build my church.

This will bring us to the ten horns on the head of the dreadful and terrible beast in Daniel 7:7-8 . The head of the beast represents the emperors that ruled Rome when it was an empire and in power. The ten horns represents ten men who tried to restore Rome and make it a world dominating emoie agian.The little horn that had eyes like a man, and a mouth speaking great things , represents the men that took on the title of the Pope. Being that this little horn will continue until the second coming of Jesus, we understand it is the office of the Pope that will make the difference.It does not mattwe how many men hold that office, they inherit the power that comes with it, and are all represented by tht little horn.)))

(((Guess what? This little horn is the pope A.K.A The AnitChrist. That is the Abomintion of Desolation known as the POPE(AnitChrist)… )))

Once the Pope(AntiChrist) step into that 3nd temple which is they building right now. That when the three half years Great Tribulation starts. Not the seven year Tribulation because it is a lie. But the bible says in the book of Revelation The Great Tribulation is only 42 month which is three half years only. NOT SEVEN YEARS!!!!!

Daniel7:15-25
I Daniel was grieved in my spirit in the midst of [my] body, and the visions of my head troubled me.

Dan 7:16 I came near unto one of them that stood by, and asked him the truth of all this. So he told me, and made me know the interpretation of the things.

Dan 7:17 These great beasts, which are four, [are] four kings, [which] shall arise out of the earth.

Dan 7:18 But the saints of the most High shall take the kingdom, and possess the kingdom for ever, even for ever and ever.

Dan 7:19 Then I would know the truth of the fourth beast, which was diverse from all the others, exceeding dreadful, whose teeth [were of] iron, and his nails [of] brass; [which] devoured, brake in pieces, and stamped the residue with his feet;

Dan 7:20 And of the ten horns that [were] in his head, and [of] the other which came up, and before whom three fell; even [of] that horn that had eyes, and a mouth that spake very great things, whose look [was] more stout than his fellows.

Dan 7:21 I beheld, and the same horn made war with the saints, and prevailed against them;

((( The Pope (A.K.A AntiChrist) is going to hunt you down and kill you and cut off your head of your body because you find out that you have to worship on Saturday(True Sabbath) which is the truth, and you just find out that Christmas was a pagan day. You just finding out that aint onbody is not getting raptrue off. You just find out that your fake Sunday Pastor telling you lies all this time to your face. That why the pope is going to make war with the saints because the people is seeking God just find out the truth when they open the bible. And the Pope hate that when you opening the bible and that why the Pope (A.K.A AntiChrist ) coming after those when just finding out the truth.)))

Dan 7:22 Until the Ancient of days came, and judgment was given to the saints of the most High; and the time came that the saints possessed the kingdom.

(((This after the Great Tribulation that Jesus will Judge the world and doing some killing before He throw alot of people in the Lake of Fire because they refuse to keep all of God Ten Commandments and His Dietary Law as well.)))

Dan 7:23 ¶ Thus he said, The fourth beast shall be the fourth kingdom upon earth, which shall be diverse from all kingdoms, and shall devour the whole earth, and shall tread it down, and break it in pieces.

Dan 7:24 And the ten horns out of this kingdom [are] ten kings [that] shall arise: and another shall rise after them; and he shall be diverse from the first, and he shall subdue three kings.

Dan 7:25 And he shall speak [great] words against the most High, and shall wear out the saints of the most High, and think to change times and laws: and they shall be given into his hand until a time and times and the dividing of time.

((( This AntiChrist (The Pope) will go against everything that Jesus say what you can and can not do. Like for example Christ say if you love me keep all my Commentments ,but Pope will say you dont have to keep the Law. But Jesus says do not make any graven images or do not bow down to them. But Pope says no you can do keep the Christmas. Christ say love your enemy but the Pope say kill your enemy. Everything the pope (A.K.A AntiChrist) dose or go aginist what God says. That is blasphemy and that cant be forgiven in this life of the next. The Pope will be doing this for a time and time dividing of time. That is three half years of Hell from the AntiChrist(pope ) once He ste into that 3nd temple , and you better start fleeing out this country and go to the MOUNTIANS which is the Wilderness The place of safey were God Gave Moses The Ten Commandments at. Since we in the Untied States , we have to flee to the East acorss the RED SEA.. You will wait to get there so you can get away for the Pope(AntiChrist) . )))

Matthew24:16
16Then let them which be in Judaea flee into the mountains:
17Let him which is on the housetop not come down to take any thing out of his house:
18Neither let him which is in the field return back to take his clothes.

((( I just told you that is the place of safey which is the Wilderness that mountains that Jesus tell us to go after you see the pope take his place at this 3nd temple and calling himself God . But that just kill alot of lie about the rapture because aint no rapture. If that was why did Jesus tell us to flees to some mountian just to get away for the pope(AntiChrist).Because the rapture thing is a lie. You will not find the word rapture in the bible. ITs going to be crazy when this AntiChrist(The pope) steps in the 3nd temple and he will make fire come fire and make the status walk and talk . This pope will get his power from Satan. . We going to read more about the AntiChrist and what the make of the beast(666) mean since these Sunday pagan worshiper is not going to tell you.)))

Revelation13:1-18
Rev 13:1 ¶ And I stood upon the sand of the sea, and saw a beast rise up out of the sea, having seven heads and ten horns, and upon his horns ten crowns, and upon his heads the name of blasphemy.

Rev 13:2 And the beast which I saw was like unto a leopard, and his feet were as [the feet] of a bear, and his mouth as the mouth of a lion: and the dragon gave him his power, and his seat, and great authority.

Rev 13:3 And I saw one of his heads as it were wounded to death; and his deadly wound was healed: and all the world wondered after the beast.

Rev 13:4 And they worshipped the dragon which gave power unto the beast: and they worshipped the beast, saying, Who [is] like unto the beast? who is able to make war with him?

Rev 13:5 And there was given unto him a mouth speaking great things and blasphemies; and power was given unto him to continue forty [and] two months.

Rev 13:6 And he opened his mouth in blasphemy against God, to blaspheme his name, and his tabernacle, and them that dwell in heaven.

Rev 13:7 And it was given unto him to make war with the saints, and to overcome them: and power was given him over all kindreds, and tongues, and nations.

Rev 13:8 And all that dwell upon the earth shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life of the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world.

Rev 13:9 If any man have an ear, let him hear.

Rev 13:10 He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints.

Rev 13:11 ¶ And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon.

Rev 13:12 And he exerciseth all the power of the first beast before him, and causeth the earth and them which dwell therein to worship the first beast, whose deadly wound was healed.

Rev 13:13 And he doeth great wonders, so that he maketh fire come down from heaven on the earth in the sight of men,

Rev 13:14 And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by [the means of] those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live.

Rev 13:15 And he had power to give life unto the image of the beast, that the image of the beast should both speak, and cause that as many as would not worship the image of the beast should be killed.

Rev 13:16 And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads:

Rev 13:17 And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.

Rev 13:18 Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number [is] Six hundred threescore [and] six.

((( Do you know what 666 means? I will tell you. Since the number Six hundred threescore and six is the numbe of the beast and the numbe of man.
When you see the Pope wearing a clown of his head.

That clown has title name VICARIUS Filii Dei which means subsittuting replacements of the Son of God. other word This pope calling himself God.!!! That is blasphemy!!!!!
V = 5
I = 1
C = 100
A = no value
R = no value
I = 1
U = 5
S= no value

=112

F = no value
I = 1
L = 50
I = 1
I = 1

=53

D = 500
E = no value
I =1

501
When you add the total number of value 112+53+501 =666. That is the number of the Pope which is the number of the beast and the number of man.
Bibile say if anybodt take that mark of ther beast(666) they will go into THE LAKE OF FIRE….

Matthew24:19-51
19And woe unto them that are with child, and to them that give suck in those days!
20But pray ye that your flight be not in the winter, neither on the sabbath day:
21For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be.
22And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect’s sake those days shall be shortened.
23Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there; believe it not.
24For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.
25Behold, I have told you before.
26Wherefore if they shall say unto you, Behold, he is in the desert; go not forth: behold, he is in the secret chambers; believe it not.
27For as the lightning cometh out of the east, and shineth even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.
28For wheresoever the carcase is, there will the eagles be gathered together.
29Immediately after the tribulation of those days shall the sun be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens shall be shaken:
30And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.
31And he shall send his angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other.
32Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When his branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is nigh:
33So likewise ye, when ye shall see all these things, know that it is near, even at the doors.
34Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass, till all these things be fulfilled.
35Heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away.
36But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.
37But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.
38For as in the days that were before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noe entered into the ark,
39And knew not until the flood came, and took them all away; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.
40Then shall two be in the field; the one shall be taken, and the other left.
41Two women shall be grinding at the mill; the one shall be taken, and the other left.
42Watch therefore: for ye know not what hour your Lord doth come.
43But know this, that if the goodman of the house had known in what watch the thief would come, he would have watched, and would not have suffered his house to be broken up.
44Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh.
45Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season?
46Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing.
47Verily I say unto you, That he shall make him ruler over all his goods.
48But and if that evil servant shall say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming;
49And shall begin to smite his fellowservants, and to eat and drink with the drunken;
50The lord of that servant shall come in a day when he looketh not for him, and in an hour that he is not aware of,

Wow, really deep stories you guys- much props on ya’ll bein’ steeerong KEEP ON!!!
Now about this contest- “F” it! Why da hell I or 163,418,484,564,161% of the country want a dress IN BEYONCE’S SIZE????????!!!!!!!!! N WTF is that goin 2 do for N E body???? If u relyin’ on winnin this dress for an event u need to attend: well i’m not gonna say that! It’s better stuff 2 win right now, n Beyonce’s dress ain’t it! Keep it movin m~u~@~h!

I dont want the dress but reading all of these stories make me so sad! Sucks how badly people can lie and be dishonest! A couple of these stories sound just like mine…met the guy, was apprehensive about the guy, gave the guy a chance anyway, fell in love, gave the guy everything I had to give…and I do mean EVERYTHING…for 3 yrs, show up at his house to give him his income tax return papers that he needed by the next day that he’d be bugging me about for weeks…only to have him not answer the door when clearly his car AND another car was there. Long story short…an hour and a half later after a “showdown” with him….she came out the door 9 mos. pregnant! I think the worse thing about it all was that he stood there and denied her child in front of me…had the poor girl crying. What made it even worse was that he continued to deny the child to me while claiming it to everyone else…though he said he wasnt sure because “she had a bad rep”. I later found out that she was some random chick he’d only known for 1 month when she got pregnant and refused to have an abortion as he requested when he found out about the pregnancy. I was completely disgusted and ran to be tested for everything they had a test for!! I’ve never felt so much rage and hurt all at the same time for another human being in my life…I hated him at that point. She had the kid a day after my birthday….he still tries to get me back to this day but now I simply want to be left alone. I just dont think I can be around that child without feeling some kind of way about it.

I guess despite me avoiding relationships all through high school and early on in college because I was afraid of being hurt…it all caught up to me eventually. I had to learn that everyone has/will experience heartbreak/heartache at some point in life, like it or not. I thought I’d observed guys enuff over the years to avoid the b.s. when I saw it but when it comes to matters of the heart…you really can’t say what you will and won’t accept or do. Love is a hard thing…but I’ve vowed not to be bitter nor change how hard I love….just be more careful about WHO I love so hard.

Ok, so in high school I thought I had met the love of my life. We had a natural chemistry together and we just clicked. He made me feel so good about myself that no one could put me down, which was a very long way I came from because I suffered with confidence issues from when I was a kid because of my weight. He never pressured me into sex because he knew I was a virgin and that made me love him all the more. We talked everyday and night on the phone and when we went over on our bills and got our phones taken we resorted to house phones and email. Christmas and Valentine’s day were great days in our relationship. He supported me dancing and whatever else I wanted to do. He said ‘I love you’ first in the relationship and I believed that he met it because I did when I said it. We would also have this inside thing & say ‘I wuv you’ all the time too. He would leave me really sweet voice mails to wake up to every morning we were together and til this day no other man has done that. Only thing was that he never told anyone about it in school. Of course our close friends knew, but we did want to keep it a secret just to avoid drama with other people that liked us. It was fun for the first few months and then he just started denying ‘us’ altogether. Mind you, we texted ALL day in school even when we were only sitting across from each other. Our first Valentine’s day was that day I waited for for months. I had decided to let him be my first and I just knew it was meant to be, even though I had planned on saving myself for marriage. While on the phone with him just days before V-day, I came on my cycle. The sex part was out of the window but we still went out together and had a great time. Maybe a month later, all the constant texting stopped, the emailing stopped, the sweet voice-mails stopped…everything. He just stopped loving me all together it felt, and when you put your ALL into a relationship like that and someone just turns on you, it takes years to heal. I stayed single maybe until my senior year of high school until I had my next serious boyfriend. I couldn’t listen to certain songs without crying my heart out because I felt worse than what I would have felt if I had actually let him be my first. I even tried to get back with him the next year but he just brushed me off like he never said some of the things he said to me. He gave me my first nick name, Betty Boo which people sometimes still call me. Our relationship was built on pure feelings for one another and nothing more. I thought I would never heal from that but once I forgave him which I had to because I always had at least one class with him, I was able to move on. Sad part about that is the guy I’m with now, been almost a year-this try…I pushed him aside 4 years ago for me to fall for someone else and be hurt. I’m in my second year of college now and no longer do I cry over a guy, I just let it go and keep it moving. All things happen for a reason.

I will admit that there are many stories on here that are heartfelt and sad but I feel that most of them are very predictable and common and I honestly feel that I have a truly broken heart that I cannot seem to replace. I never really even talked to guys until I was around 16 or so and then I met my first (real) boyfriend at my job as he came through my line. Long story short we started dating and everything despite the fact he was 23, he was on probation, and he had no job or money. I look back and know that now I should have not even talked to him but I really enjoyed the attention. Through the course of our relationship I gave him most of all the money I made (which was not much), went out to see him and got in trouble like everyday for staying gone all day, and became physically and mentally abused. I would always overlook stuff because I was and still kinda am in love with him. However, I am now 20 and I am still suffering from all of the past issues I had with him. This is mainly why I feel so heart broken; I got credit cards when I was 18 and of course they are all maxed because of me as well but mainly him, I dropped out of college so I am now just working to make my money back, and I am just now getting myself back together. I am also broken hearted because I know that the main reason I am now getting myself back together is because since 12/08 he has been in prison and I have had time to live my own life without him weighing me down but he gets in 12/09 (in a few months) and I plan to have nothing to do with him but I don’t know if that will work. I have also been trying to meet new guys and hopefully start a new relationship before he gets back but I have not had any luck with that because all of the guys I seem to meet just want one thing and never make the effort to get to know me or even care to spend anytime with me even as just friends. I know having a boyfriend is not a necessity and I thank God that I have no children by any of these fools but I am very broken hearted because always give my all and am always there for others but it seems to get me nothing but problems.

Broken hearted girl is the story of my life however I am determined to not let the situations that have happened to me break me or make me a different person. I try to be the same happy, God fearing, and confident woman I’ve always been so it’s hard. I don’t have just one story I have a serious of stories that got me to the point that I am today. Women you should never let a man who has broken your heart change your outlook on life or make you a different person because that means you have given them too much power.

Here is just a quick brief overview of my love life. I’m a Big beautiful woman so you know some men try to use and abuse us but I’ve learned over the years that I deserve nothing less than the best. First it was my highschool sweetheart. I love him and I thought he loved me until I went to college out of town and he stayed at home drinking and smoking then when i would get home from college to visit he would accuse me of cheating on him. After awhile fights escalated one night while driving he punched me in the face and I almost hit a light pole. I broke my nail on the side of the car door and scratched the hell out his face. But I took him back later like a fool because he used the excuse he was drunk but it only got worse. He slapped me many times before and there was the time he rubbed my face in the grass because he knew I was allergic to it and then he said ok see if anyone wants you now. That’s when I knew I had to leave him so I went to college and stopped coming home for weekends or holidays. I found someone who I thought was great and would protect me in college and he was sweet. Well the ex found out and begin stalking me at school. The guy that was interested in me protected me and so did his friends so of course I thought he was GOD sent. I wouldn’t find out til later that he was not. After a while he started cheating and I was not aware of it. We were together for three years. Over that time he cheated numerous times and he got a girl pregnant on me (which I took him back like a fool after the fact). Then on top of that I begin to drink and party with him living that life just so we could be closer had my life all messed up but I did keep my grades up and I finished school thank GOD. God is truly GOOD!!! Then after he dropped out of college I no longer saw him. I started dating another guy who seemed to be great he cooked for me, cleaned for me and spent a lot of time for me. LIttle did i know he had a plot to get me pregnant because he was going to IRAQ and didn’t have any kids. So while i thought we were having protected sex he took the condom off without me knowing and I got pregnant. I wasn’t in love with him after that knowing how he tricked me. Needless to say he went off to war and he does not take care of his son who is now almost five. He doesn’t see him nor does he financially support him. So I was raising my son not worried bout a romantic life moved to a new town. I wasn’t thinking about falling in love after all the men who had hurt me. However, I met this guy who was charming and just seemed like maybe things would work. Dated him for a year and half. I really fell in love with him. Went on overnight trips with him, cooked for him, even learned the game of football so we would have more quality time together. I treated him like my KING! I cant say that I have loved anyone more than I love him. I should have known better when we first started dating he had a girl five months pregnant and didn’t tell me until after a while and I was already in love with him. Well a year later he I find out on MYSPACE that he has someone else pregnant that happened when we were on one of our BREAKS and what made it worse it was by the same woman he had a previous child with. We talked about it and I tried to work through it even though it was difficult. I told him if there was anything else he needed to tell me don’t hide it from me because if he didn’t tell me then there would be no working on anything else. He said nothing months past the due date and I was there for him and guess what the baby was born and the next day I log on to MYSPACE to find a link to another girls page who has had a baby for him the following day. So he had two women pregnant at the same time and the babies were a day apart and again I found out on MYSPACE. Yea it seemed like the end of the world. I was like how the hell did this happen but I let it go and let GOD deal with him. He tried to explain and even deny the second baby I found out about but the fact still remained he was sleeping with these women obviously without protection. I got myself fully checked to make sure I was okay. Thank God everything was fine because had they not been you would have been seeing me on CNN!!! I trusted him with everything including things I never told anyone, my heart and my soul. I realized something though through all the pain that GOD BLOCKED my hurt from going any further. I was not pregnant by him and I never had to deal with him again. That was six months ago and I have learned that being alone is not the worst thing in the world. I am working on me and my career. I am going back to school to get my Masters degree and I have learned that sometimes people are not who you think they are. The devil wears a disguise and God saves you and you have to believe that. So I’m still single and I’m learning to love myself more everyday. I do have a precious son who i love more than anything in the world. My goal is to be the best mother and person that I can be. I didn’t let the men in my past break me. THEY MAY HAVE BROKEN MY HEART AND HURT MY FEELINGS BUT THAT’S ALL. I DIDN’T ALLOW THESE MEN TO BREAK MY SOUL, MY SPIRIT OR MY FAITH IN GOD. So it’s better to have a broken heart than to be totally BROKEN. I know that God created someone especially for me and I am truly waiting for the one he has kept for me until it is time. I tell myself every day this : “I AM A QUEEN WHO IS READY FOR HER KING AND HE WILL APPEAR!!!”

Ok here we go, I have had my heart broken by men ever since I can remember. Starting with my father, when he died in 1996 around Christmas time, it wasn’t his fault but he’s gone. My first boyfriend which was after high school since no one wanted to date a big girl in high school, well he told me everything a young self conscience big girl wanted to hear, he took my virginity and 2 months later he moved away and really didn’t care about me. Then after that I was so hurt that he moved only 2 months after that that I left home and moved in with some of my friends there I met my baby daddy, he was older had 2 kids already but he seem to be taking care of them so I thought why not, I got pregnant and didn’t know I was pregnant until I moved back home due to a lot of drug use in the house. I was with out contact and I was going to put my baby up in adoption until the papers got to him asking to give up his parential rights. Of course we got in contact he knew it was his cause he told me that he was going to try to get me pregnant. We try to work things out but he was cheating, stealing and lying on me. He took me on a roller coaster ride for about 3 years. I moved on I kept my daughter which is the biggest blessing in the world that God Almighty can ever had giving me. I went to school, graduated college and during my last year of school I met this guy, I thought wow, this could be it. He said he loved me the way I am, he loved every inch of my body big as it is, we would laugh together and just vibe, at first everything was cool but then he started treating my like a booty call, he never had time to take me out, or call me, or text me, but when he did see me he would ask me to marry him that he was working many jobs for me and my daughter, he wanted to get a house. I couldn’t take it anymore though after a year and a half of being ignored basically I was fed up. It hurt because the worst thing you can do to someone is ignore them. If he cheated it could have been easier because you get mad and you move on, how do you deal with someone that ignores you but says he loves you. Anyways even my 2 brothers let me down, I had to call the cops on one of them because he charged at me like we were in a football game, and he was saying that he wanted to brake my jaw that I needed my jaw to be broken. What the hell, no love from uncles, no love from brothers, my dad died, and certainly no love from a real man. How can a woman put her trust in men when every single male in her life as let her down. One thing is for certain, I have the love of God and this does not tie my up because if so it would not allowed me to graduate from college and currently working on my masters in higher education administration and leadership, women we are much stronger than any man, don’t we ever forget that, God is with us.

As for me and being a god fearing woman,i know that things in life happens for a reason and its also a test and only god holds the plan, but its up to us to do the right things in life.At times we seem as if we are doing the right thing in a realationship an you give your all and do what it takes to make your mate happy and it turns out that its not enough.You must remember that communication is the golden key to a realationship,without that you have what i call an unbalanced realationship.Iknow this because i have been married twice the first marriage was great,untill he started to be missing in action for days then it turned into weeks.Then i said enough is enough,what is really going on?come to find out he had another family,living another life,so that was the end of that three month marriage and the messed up part about it was,i was pregnant with his son.The remainder of my pregnancy, i was happy and i did not let that get me down, thats because i had god on my side and the best thing that came out of this marriage was our son.He wanted me to get an abortion but i chose life,and now he is the most amazing four year old on this planet.

i was 18. fresh out of school and just move to texas from the philippines. i run away with a sailor. choose him over obeying my families wishes. i was naive. in my head we were going to be a family and live happily ever after. my family disowned me. but that was okay. i had him. the love of my life. from day one he had always put his hands on me. i accepted that. i did everything for him. hand washed his navy uniform ” i mean seriously who does that”. 100 percent faithful to him. never lied about anything. when he told me im not aloud to go out then so be it. i had one friend out of the 4 year i was with him but that was fine. and never once did i buy new clothes for 3 years even when i was pregnant cause i didnt want him to say i was wasting his money. we had a baby and he never told his family about me or my son until his mom finally took it in her own hands to find out what has been going on. i was clueless about the lies he had told his family for 4 years. he denied my son to his own family and cheated on me after all i have done and sacrifized for him. now im living with his mom with my son trying to pick my life back up. i am bless that after all the suffering from him that i ended up with my beautiful boy who will always be my heart. i wish my ex happiness and hope all the wrong he has done to me wont come back to hunt him someday.

I met the love of my life in June of 2000, when I was 23. He was in the Army, and stationed up north about an hour and a half from me. We saw each other as much as possible, meaning, there were times when he would drive down in the evening, spend the night, I’d drive him back up in the morning, make it in time to go to work myself, and go back to pick him up after I got off. Mind you, I did not have a vehicle at the time, so it was his car that we drove back and forth. My parents were first generation refugees from Asia, and did not approve of their youngest daughter’s African American boyfriend. They were never rude to him, but I always got an earful. Eventually we moved in together, and it was really frustrating, because he suffered from depression and could not find a job now that he was out of the Army. Things got really rough and even though we decided that he would move back to his hometown, whilst I stayed here, we were still together as a couple…a long distance couple, but a couple. The day he was due to leave, we just laid in bed all morning, held one another, and shed all our tears. I will never forget that day.
He moved back down south, and we continued to visit as much as we can, but being that I was in NY, and he now in KY, it was difficult. He re-inlisted in the military, and we were talking wedding bells, and babies. I can honestly say that I truly loved this man…I still do.
In March of 05′ while visiting him, I decided that I would move to KY to be with him. Things seemed perfect between us. We both wanted to move our relationship further. The whole plan was to come home after the visit, put in my notice at work, and be back down there in a month. We were both so happy and in love at that time. Two weeks after I came back from KY, my father passed away. He went in for a routine biopsy, and never came home. Mind you, exactly 6 months before, my mother had a stroke in which she lost usage of her right side. Our carefully planned future was lost to me.
I moved home to help with my mom, no longer had a job, and our relationship was rocky because I could not leave my mom. True I have other siblings, but they were all married, with families of their own. My mother couldn’t cook for herself, clean for herself, let alone bathe herself. Family duties hit me harder than anyone else. He tried to understand, but he couldn’t fully understand how I basically put my life on hold…how I put him on hold, to care for my mother.
Yet, we still talked several times a week, and saw one another when we could afford the time, and money. Things weren’t quite the same between us after that. One thing or another always came up, and life’s little sordid humor always injected itself in at the least opportune time. The last time we saw each other was Thanksgiving 2008. He drove up to spend the long weekend with me, and we broke up earlier this year. We were together for almost 9 years. I still love him more than he’ll ever know, and even though I’ve tried to move on, I can’t help but compare everyone to him. I don’t know how to truly move on and go on with my life without him. I still have all of the dreams we made and planned close to my heart. I still wear the ring he gave me on my finger, and since the first time it went on it, it hasn’t come off. I believe that he is my soulmate and my question is…what do you do when you’ve found your soulmate, and had to let them go? What do you do next? We still text and talk several times a week. But we no longer say “I love you” or “I miss you”. We’re trying to be cool now, and I can honestly say…I don’t want him to find someone else. I want things to be the way they were between us.

im not a good story teller but ill do my best. i was 18. fresh out of school and just move to texas from the philippines. i run away with a sailor. choose him over obeying my families wishes. i was naive. in my head we were going to be a family and live happily ever after. my family disowned me. but that was okay. i had him. the love of my life. from day one he had always put his hands on me. i accepted that. i did everything for him. hand washed his navy uniform ” i mean seriously who does that”. 100 percent faithful to him. never lied about anything. when he told me im not aloud to go out then so be it. i had one friend out of the 4 year i was with him but that was fine. and never once did i buy new clothes for 3 years even when i was pregnant cause i didnt want him to say i was wasting his money. we had a baby and he never told his family about me or my son until his mom finally took it in her own hands to find out what has been going on. i was clueless about the lies he had told his family for 4 years. he denied my son to his own family and cheated on me after all i have done and sacrifized for him. now im living with his mom with my son trying to pick my life back up. i am bless that after all the suffering from him that i ended up with my beautiful boy who will always be my heart. i wish my ex happiness and hope all the wrong he has done to me wont come back to hunt him someday.

Hear i am again got divorced not really that, an annulment the first time in 2005.a year later i met and old boyfriend from the 90′s.We dated from 2006-2009.We went on dates,we took the kids on trips ,we laugh,had fun and with us it was all about family.it was GOD first, the kids and then us.He was a hard worker,and a christian man that came from a christian family his father was preacher,so felt he knew what it takes to make a realationship work at least thats what i thought.in 2007-2008,was terriable he was seeing other women and stop spending time with me,late phone calls,just doing him,and thats that he says he do what he want and i don t need to question him.he picks fights and puts me and the kids out,doesnt want to talk about it untill he gets ready.That can be day or weeks.I caught him with women twice,and it did not bother him at all that he hurt me.To me he was arogant,because he had money,he liked to show boat with his friends and tricking with all types of loose women.Then it came to a point where i had enough of this,so i left,but i kept going back this was like after five months.He asked me to marry him,and like a fool,i did and know this man was going to be straight for only a short while, but prayed everyday for him and for our realationship to become stronger.It did but he ran out of money,he was broke,had no jobs coming in,he was a self-employed contractor.Then i said i want this to work.I love him an he is my husband.I had full time job to take care of the family,then after a while it bothered him that i was the bread winner in the house.He became distant,not really into what marriage is really about.I stood my ground,and did what i was to do and told him its okay something going to come through.By him being an excellant carpanter,we remodel the old house he was raised up in.I financed and design it and he did the work.All i wanted to do was turn this old house in to home,and the way i was use to living,if it was up to him, it did not matter.We did that,the house came out beautiful and all his siblings and family were amazed and happy gave me compliments on the designs and decor.which my husband did not give me credit for nothing he just find fault in everything.Then one day out of the blue he jumps on me in the car,because i ignored him when he wanted the keys to motorcycle.I was shocked and scared that i never seen him that angry and the fact that i would have ever though he would beat me and choke me the way he did,behind me not giving him keys,but he said i was showing off in front of his people.The police got involved he was arrested,an i put a protection order on him,thinking would have to leave the house,but it was the opposite my kids and i were court order to leave,and i did not have no place to go,no family close or friends nothing.i just said take us to a hotel.he to my car my motorcycle ,funiture and removed them form the house.then he let his kids and family came there an took whatever they wanted like it was a garage sale.I was so upset because i worked hard for everthing that i had and he new i had the best of everything clothes,shoes,purses,jewlery,just the idea he did not care what happened to my kids and i or my belongings,i said that was it and looking at he bruises and could not eat or swollow from him strangling me.i was done an if he did that for something so small,what if it was something big,he probally wouldhave killed me,so not taking any chances.I had to deal with social services and with there help i was placed in a place where i don t want to be but its home and i am at peace and most of all my boys are happy .Even though,he let his family take away my material things, the one thing no man on this earth can take is my joy,and the love i have God and my kids.Ladies never stay in abusive realationships, no matyer what it is about thats not love.”LET GO AND LET GOD” Just believe and trust in him,and he will provide all your needs and will wipe all your tears away an sow you the way. P.S Sorry for not laceing punctuation where they should be,i got caught up in telling the things that i been through and this is not even half of trials and tribulations i have been through,but give thanks to GOD,that i made it

Hear i am again got divorced not really that, an annulment the first time in 2005.a year later i met and old boyfriend from the 90′s.We dated from 2006-2009.We went on dates,we took the kids on trips ,we laugh,had fun and with us it was all about family.it was GOD first, the kids and then us.He was a hard worker,and a christian man that came from a christian family his father was preacher,so felt he knew what it takes to make a realationship work at least thats what i thought.in 2007-2008,was terriable he was seeing other women and stop spending time with me,late phone calls,just doing him,and thats that he says he do what he want and i don t need to question him.he picks fights and puts me and the kids out,doesnt want to talk about it untill he gets ready.That can be day or weeks.I caught him with women twice,and it did not bother him at all that he hurt me.To me he was arogant,because he had money,he liked to show boat with his friends and tricking with all types of loose women.Then it came to a point where i had enough of this,so i left,but i kept going back this was like after five months.He asked me to marry him,and like a fool,i did and know this man was going to be straight for only a short while, but prayed everyday for him and for our realationship to become stronger.It did but he ran out of money,he was broke,had no jobs coming in,he was a self-employed contractor.Then i said i want this to work.I love him an he is my husband.I had full time job to take care of the family,then after a while it bothered him that i was the bread winner in the house.He became distant,not really into what marriage is really about.I stood my ground,and did what i was to do and told him its okay something going to come through.By him being an excellant carpanter,we remodel the old house he was raised up in.I financed and design it and he did the work.All i wanted to do was turn this old house in to home,and the way i was use to living,if it was up to him, it did not matter.We did that,the house came out beautiful and all his siblings and family were amazed and happy gave me compliments on the designs and decor.which my husband did not give me credit for nothing he just find fault in everything.Then one day out of the blue he jumps on me in the car,because i ignored him when he wanted the keys to motorcycle.I was shocked and scared that i never seen him that angry and the fact that i would have ever though he would beat me and choke me the way he did,behind me not giving him keys,but he said i was showing off in front of his people.The police got involved he was arrested,an i put a protection order on him,thinking would have to leave the house,but it was the opposite my kids and i were court order to leave,and i did not have no place to go,no family close or friends nothing.i just said take us to a hotel.he to my car my motorcycle ,funiture and removed them form the house.then he let his kids and family came there an took whatever they wanted like it was a garage sale.I was so upset because i worked hard for everthing that i had and he new i had the best of everything clothes,shoes,purses,jewlery,just the idea he did not care what happened to my kids and i or my belongings,i said that was it and looking at he bruises and could not eat or swollow from him strangling me.i was done an if he did that for something so small,what if it was something big,he probally wouldhave killed me,so not taking any chances.I had to deal with social services and with there help i was placed in a place where i don t want to be but its home and i am at peace and most of all my boys are happy .Even though,he let his family take away my material things, the one thing no man on this earth can take is my joy,and the love i have God and my kids.Ladies never stay in abusive realationships, no matyer what it is about thats not love.”LET GO AND LET GOD” Just believe and trust in him,and he will provide all your needs and will wipe all your tears away an sow you the way. P.S Sorry for not laceing punctuation where they should be,i got caught up in telling the things that i been through and this is not even half of trials and tribulations i have been through,but give thanks to GOD,that i made it.”U HAVE TO GO TROUGH THE HURT AND PAIN TO HEAL”

Hear i am again got divorced not really that, an annulment the first time in 2005.a year later i met and old boyfriend from the 90′s.We dated from 2006-2009.We went on dates,we took the kids on trips ,we laugh,had fun and with us it was all about family.it was GOD first, the kids and then us.He was a hard worker,and a christian man that came from a christian family his father was preacher,so felt he knew what it takes to make a realationship work at least thats what i thought.in 2007-2008,was terriable he was seeing other women and stop spending time with me,late phone calls,just doing him,and thats that he says he do what he want and i don t need to question him.he picks fights and puts me and the kids out,doesnt want to talk about it untill he gets ready.That can be day or weeks.I caught him with women twice,and it did not bother him at all that he hurt me.To me he was arogant,because he had money,he liked to show boat with his friends and tricking with all types of loose women.Then it came to a point where i had enough of this,so i left,but i kept going back this was like after five months.He asked me to marry him,and like a fool,i did and know this man was going to be straight for only a short while, but prayed everyday for him and for our realationship to become stronger.It did but he ran out of money,he was broke,had no jobs coming in,he was a self-employed contractor.Then i said i want this to work.I love him an he is my husband.I had full time job to take care of the family,then after a while it bothered him that i was the bread winner in the house.He became distant,not really into what marriage is really about.I stood my ground,and did what i was to do and told him its okay something going to come through.By him being an excellant carpanter,we remodel the old house he was raised up in.I financed and design it and he did the work.All i wanted to do was turn this old house in to home,and the way i was use to living,if it was up to him, it did not matter.We did that,the house came out beautiful and all his siblings and family were amazed and happy gave me compliments on the designs and decor.which my husband did not give me credit for nothing he just find fault in everything.Then one day out of the blue he jumps on me in the car,because i ignored him when he wanted the keys to motorcycle.I was shocked and scared that i never seen him that angry and the fact that i would have ever though he would beat me and choke me the way he did,behind me not giving him keys,but he said i was showing off in front of his people.The police got involved he was arrested,an i put a protection order on him,thinking would have to leave the house,but it was the opposite my kids and i were court order to leave,and i did not have no place to go,no family close or friends nothing.i just said take us to a hotel.he to my car my motorcycle ,funiture and removed them form the house.then he let his kids and family came there an took whatever they wanted like it was a garage sale.I was so upset because i worked hard for everthing that i had and he new i had the best of everything clothes,shoes,purses,jewlery,just the idea he did not care what happened to my kids and i or my belongings,i said that was it and looking at he bruises and could not eat or swollow from him strangling me.i was done an if he did that for something so small,what if it was something big,he probally wouldhave killed me,so not taking any chances.I had to deal with social services and with there help i was placed in a place where i don t want to be but its home and i am at peace and most of all my boys are happy .Even though,he let his family take away my material things, the one thing no man on this earth can take is my joy,and the love i have God and my kids.Ladies never stay in abusive realationships, no matyer what it is about thats not love.”LET GO AND LET GOD” Just believe and trust in him,and he will provide all your needs and will wipe all your tears away an sow you the way. P.S Sorry for not Placeing punctuation where they should be,i got caught up in telling the things that i been through and this is not even half of trials and tribulations i have been through,but give thanks to GOD,that i made it.”U HAVE TO GO TROUGH THE HURT AND PAIN TO HEAL”

Well, I was in love with my ex-boyfriend Jon. We would always do everything together and there for each other when we need one another the most. 5 months after dating, I found out I was pregnant with our first child. Jon wanted me to get an abortion, and I said no, I’m keeping the baby. He broke up with me that night syaing that a child will ruin his rep, and his college life. Well, he moved on with another girl, and said to me that he wants nothing to do with my daughter or me. So now I am a 22 year old mother and college senior, and I’m doing pretty good without him, but I breaks my heart to see my daughter not knowing who her father is and where the other half of her come from. He still calls me, never asks about her and he calls me names to this day. It still hurts after two years….

I married the man of my dreams or so I thought. We dated for 7 years before we both decided we were ready to stand before GOD and our families to confess our love for one another. During the time of planning the wedding I decided I was missing something else in my life which was a career, so I went back to college to earn an associates degree in surgical technology. After I graduated we had our fairy tale wedding that lasted all of three months because he decided that he wanted another woman. To make matters worse he didn’t tell me at home, he called me at work to say that he had fallen in love with another woman and that she was pregnate with his child. I was so devasted to hear this news all I could do was leave work, pack my things, and moved out.

awww well I really don’t care about the dress I just feel I need to tell my story to all the young girls out there so they won’t make the same mistake as I did. I fell in love with “John” when I was 15, I never been with anybody before and he was my first. We all know love will make you do crazy things, things that you will never think of doing until you meet that person. Well we went together for a year then we broke up because I found out he had a baby by another girl…. messed up part about it is he didn’t tell me his mother did on new years eve!! I was heart broken but I moved on because I knew I could do better. Fast forward to 2004 I ran across him again at the store and we exchanged numbers (I know dumb). He seemed like he changed but now I know lier’s never change. So we start kickin it again and I end up knocked up with his baby. He seemed to good to be true because honestly how many women have a baby by the first man they ever slept with? Not many.. so anyway come to find out he had a daughter my another women and was living with her!! So basically I was dumb and fell for his lies again. We moved in together and tried to “work it out.” I had my son and things was going good for a couple of years until he stared to be controlling and putting his hands on me and I couldn’t take it no more… I feel like if a man has to put his hands on a women then he is not a real man and I don’t want my son to think it is okay for him to put his hands on a women. It was hard but I moved on and know I’m single sexy and free and living my life to the fullest because you never know if you will see tomorrow. I know I was dumb for going back to him but you live and you learn. I hope my story can help other women because if I can prevent the heart ache and pain then it is well worth it. I’m currently a junior in college working on my degree in social work and raising my 3 year old son by myself, it’s hard but I have to keep on pushing so I can achieve my goals for me and my son.

Well…. how do I start….? My heartbreak story I feel is a lot more different than others I would say. I am 20 years old, never been in a relationship, never had a boyfriend, still a virgin but somehow still managed to experience heartbreak. It all started out Freshman year in college. There was this one guy…, we never talked or anything at first but I remember seeing him around campus all the time. He would sometime hang out with one of my guy fiends who stayed next door to me in the dorms as well. Then one day a whole group of us all randomly decided to go watch the Tyler Perry Play “Why Did I Get Married”. And coincidentally we both rode in the same car to the movies. Since he was sitting next to me I took the initiative and introduced myself. Just out of being my goofy self I told him that we were going to be best friend in a playfully manner not knowing that would really happen.
From that day on, occasionally he would come to hang out with me, my roommate and my suite mate. And through progression of time occasionally turned into every day of the week. One of the best things I enjoyed about him was the fact that we could hold conversations for hours and talk about the most random things. On many occasion he would leave my room at around midnight and I would walk him out the building and wouldn’t return back to my room until 4am. I mean seriously… time would just fly when we were together. It came to a point where all the time he would hang out with me and my friends always walking over from the North Dorms to the South Dorms to have Lunch and dinner with my friends and I. (Even at this time people thought we were dating) We even had this little cute thing where on days he wouldn’t have lunch with me I would always save him 2 chocolate chip cookie from the cafeteria and leave my door cracked open (if i knew i wanted to take a nap) so that after lunch he can come get it. I even remember one instant on a Sunday that I entered the elevator to go to my room and I told myself in my head that the elevator smelled like him (i even knew his smell!) and there he was as I turned the corner I would see him sitting down by my door waiting for me.
Through out the course of our friendship we never kissed not to even talk about getting physical I felt something special for him, I just didn’t know what is was. I mean I would even do his Laundry out of the kindness of my heart. A part of me wanted to make our relationship more, but I was afriad to lose what we had. Most of the time he would tell me about his previous girlfriends and they were all light skinned and also me being extremely dark skinned added to my insecurities as well. Another part that sucked as well was the fact that he was really into my roommate (who di not like him at all) and I would listen to him talk upon hours and hours about how and what he might/could do to get with her. I even wrote him a love poem to give to her because he was struggling to express his emotions when it came to poetry… Since my roommate turned him down, I had to be there for him to deal with the rejection. Later on as time passed eventually I found out he did have feelings for me but never did anything about it.
To cut the long story short our many months of hanging out got cut short because of some unfortunate mishaps relating to academic issues caused him to leave the school. When he told me he had about 4 days to leave the school I was devastated. With the time I had left I got him a tag key chain with a picture of both of us acting a fool (I was picking him up in the photo) and on the back I addressed it to him from me. He also gave me one oh is Native American chains that his Grandmother made for him on the reservation that he wears. Right before he left I wrote out a very long detailed 4 page letter about my feelings for him but I ended up not giving it to him because there was no point an I wasn’t going to get anything out of it. I rewrote the letter to 1 page wishing him good luck with whatever new school he decided to go to or whatever journey he wanted to take with his life.
After he left I knew I might never see him again, just because of our different lives and the fact that he would have someone else that who he would see on a daily basis to replace me. I cried for about 2 weeks straight and was mentally and emotional depressed. I didn’t have an appetite and even lost 8 pounds, and that affected me a lot with my athletic performance. I knew we were friends but I never knew I was in love with him. It was that time period in my life that I TRULY experience heartbreak. I could physically “feel” my heart in pain, not the pain that you would think people abstractly speak about feeling. And the part that hurts the most and ’till this day I wonder what would’ve become between the two of us and if he ever did truly feel the way I did for him. Since that day I have liked other guys but to avoid feeling the way I did my freshman year… there is a limit I let my emotions go. I away make sure to save a little more for myself than for the other person. And ever since then I have kept my emotions in check because I don’t think I could go through that experience all over again.

That’s my heartbreak story. Just to let yall know…
And sometimes you don’t have to be sleeping with a person or, have them cheat on you and break-up to experience heartbreak. There are MANY other things possibilities out there.

Much Love people

Girlflavor

p.s . And I haven’t given up on ove yet! :)

I met the love of my life (so I thought) when I was 21 years old. I had just got out of a serious relationship and was pregnant. This guy started out real sweet and said all the right things. As time went on i was madly in love ( by myself) and he started to cheat. I had nobody to talk to about what i was going through because he had put a wedge between me and my family, but I was young and so in love I stayed with him. Then he became very controlling, I had to quit school and was not able to communicate with anyone. Then years after verbal abuse came the physical abuse, and I knew then that the love I had for this man no longer existed and I had to go. I did just that, one night he was in the shower I grabbed my son and drove to the police station. I sat and explained what had been going on and so did the bruises on my body. They followed me home , but he had already packed up everything and left. That left me to start over with nothing but it was worth it. Now I am back in school getting my associates degree in nursing (RN). I went through a lot with the person i loved and I thought loved me, but because of that I am a stronger person now. Love should never hurt or cause tears of sadness.

WOW!!!! I can’t really put my heart on the line to tell such a story,but congrats to the ppl who can.I feel like if you really i mean really been heart broken then a story like some what i read was not real. I’m 26 and i have no kids. Me and the love of my life have been together for years, since i was 19.We was working on making a family.It took two years and i finally got pregnant. ok this is what happened about two year in the relationship a woman call my house,and said that she was pergnant.So being the person that i am i said ok what you want me to do about it(laugh).She says well it’s jay’s baby,i said then, ok we will call you back when he gets home and i hung up.So she started to play on the phone etc.He came home and i asked him about her and of course her denied her. Later that week i found out that it was true.So he had me and this other woman pregnant at the same time.My soul was hurt i felt so hurt and betrayed that i started to have trouble with my baby i was 3mos.and it had took me two years just too get pregnant.I ended up losing my baby.The doctor said that it would be harder for me to get pregnant again.Well, She haved her baby and come to find out it was his baby.He had made this beautiful baby girl with this other woman. I CRYED LIKE HELL.That really broken my heart for years.Well, love will take you though some things and believe it or not we are still together working on making a family. Keep us in your prayers that we will get closer and closer to GOD that our day will come. sorry for the long story but i really didn’t mean to go this far it just came out. TAKE CARE

Hey Bey. Let me tell you how my heart was broken. Oh by the way. Everyone get’s on my case because they know I’m a Beyonce fan to the heart. Any who. lol

My ex man really broke my heart when I saw him blow his horn outside of a crowded club with flowers in his hand. No he didn’t give them to me. He gave them to another chick. My story was short, sweet, and to the point. He really broke my heart. I thought I was his only one for two yrs. I guess not. I was thinking that maybe he was thinking I was at home. Nope. I was outside chatting it up with some of my homegirls. I was oh so imbarassed too. This chick walked over to his car, kissed him, excepted the flowers and got in his car. Needless to say. From that day forward, I never answered any of his calls. Never answered his knocks on the door. I actually moved out of town without letting him know. He did post up in front of my house a few times for a time. It didn’t matter. I never came out. I’m now in a happy relationship for almost 7 yrs now. In another city, feeling fine.

I love you Bey.

Wow I met this man who I thought that was the man of my dreams. I had given him everything that he could ever possibly need. We got married very quickly and the that’s when the tables turned on me. I found out that he was sleeping with this 15 year old girl and he had been going over there to see him while I was at work. I forgave him for that, but then he began to become violent with me. He started hitting on me for every time that I told him no. I had become very fearful of him and then he was sent to jail. I still forgave him and took him back because I loved him and I thought that he loved me. My best friend came to stay with me with her two kids, and he was acting okay. Things seem to be normal, but then when she moved out he went back to being a beast. I could not take it anymore and I did not know what I was doing wrong to have him treat me so badly. Later one of my guy friends, who was a man, told me that my husband had been sleeping with my best friend.I left him after that. that hurt me so bad, for not only was he beating on me but he was sleeping with my best friend who I had been taken care of.
Later I met this guy who was so suave and had a lot of swagger. He was living in New York and he and I was together all the time. I took my children up there for Christmas so that they could have Christmas in New York and this dude took me to his mother’s house. I didn’t see him for the whole week that I was up there. I found out that that he had gotten married to another woman on Christmas Day. He drove me back to my home state and I had to ride back for 9 hours in this car with this man who had did this to me. Man I cried for days for I was such a fool!

It took a lot for me to fall and it took a lot for me to get back up again. All I can say is that God has always been there for me and He pulled me out of this fire and I am eternally grateful. God bless!

I think i derserve that dress because, my heart was broken so bad when i found out that the guy i was suppose to marry was living a double life in whom he was married to another woman and it really hit me when i found out that i was pregnant and that he had given me trichimoas a std that is very close to being h.i.v positve, but i thank god that my test results came back negitve and that i dont have that virus, far as the baby goes he dont want his wife to find out, so he has made attempts to hit me with his car while i’m going to work,tried to set me on firein the bed,and he even tried to put lantern oil in my food to poison me, and the bad thing about trying to get away from him is i cant because he’s a cop and he is the chief of the police department, when i met him everything was sweet we spent alot of time 2 gether, he was always with me as if he had no other life, he asked me to marry him i said yes and then i became pregnant thinking i have a good life, a house ,nice job and a nice soon 2 be husband until everything falls apart. now at this time i’m stuck in a sitution where i cant get out of and need help he go far as having people to follow me and watch my every move he knows my social security # , and full name,so no matter where i go he will find me. So now i have lost the baby i just got out the hospital 2days ago due to him throwing me off the 2nd floor balcony i landed on my face n stomach but my instinct told me to just lay there and play dead so that he would not do no more harm 2 me but i could see him leaning over the balcony looking to see if i would move or get up but when he left i inched my way to help, and found an eldery couple whom call 9ll and helped me if it wasnt for them i would have died too, i did suffer head trama and internal bleeding but i thank god i am alive 2 today and this is my stry on my life and why i deserve that dress.

This is kind of hard for me to share with others, however I know that I am not the only woman who has had her heart broken before. I have been in quite a few relationships since the age of 18. I have had men cheat on me, lie to me, abuse me (verbally and physically) and I have had men who want to do nothing but use me. I am now 27 years old and I must say that I would not take ANY of it back! I learned that sometimes you have to go through something in order to learn from your mistakes. When I was done with those unhealthy relationships I realized that it was me who needed working on. I wanted to be loved SO bad that I allowed these men to do awful things to me and that was why I stayed with them. I know now that you have GOT to love yourself first! No man will ever love you if you are not happy and in love with yourself. Out of all the drama I have been through it brought me strength, courage, wisdom, and most importantly my son. I am currently still working on me and am not dating anyone until I find a man who is worthy of a good woman such as myself. I just know that everything will be alright with God by my side!

Ok lets me start by saying im 23 years old with an 8 year old son. I was 16 when i met my guy at my grandmother funeral he was actually one of the men who works at the funeral home. I had already been n a bad relationship befor him i had just went threw it with my son’s father not wanting to be a father i no we were young but still i woman up so i was thinking he would do the same. Along comes this new and suppose to be improved man in my life. He was all for me as it started first off he was older by 4 years had it going for himself. he was cool he did it all i mean paid for daycare so that i can finish high school in everything even paid for trade school for me. everything was good we moved in after i graduated high school in 2004 it was great i toke a trade and all we were still good in 2007 things got crazy he started doing new things like not coming home in stop doing family get togethers. I was thinking maybe he was just tired in had alot on his plate so i would just write it off as nothing. May 23 of 2007 which is my birthday my cousin called me from atl to talk, me thinking it nothing she’s like what hotel are u at i want to come see u, now im like well im still home in fla at the moment but if u down come to grandma’s house, she’s telling me she’s home in just seen him at the mall walking he told her i was sick at the hotel. now im thinking he’s on a work trip like every year. So i write it off but i charge it to the game thinking its me, now the streets are talking telling me how he’s getting married to a haitian lady. Ok now im not one for hood news but now i get mad so and starte to get my game up i start checking things that he say now were still together still living together and all. going about like there is nothing so i finally come out in ask whats up about this lady in all he tells me he marring her so she can get a green card to stay here. But low in behold they are really a couple in had been one for over 2years all this after asking me to marry him 3 years befor. Now before he came out he took me tru hell his family coming at me crazy saying different things the only one stood by was his mother saying he was wrong and needed to tell me everything befor something really happens. now its July 2007 he wants to do a lunch date like we use to do so we go to red lobster like always were talking just like normal he tells me he got married on june 14 2007 while we were still living together he left my house going to his wedding he even came home as if it was nothing going on. in then he broke the ice in said he having his first kid with her she was 2mths did all this in public so that i wouldn’t react to him but that didnt work i threw a stake knife at him and it hit the wall in stayed in the wall. so i left walked out leaving him there walking down the highway, until he came and picked me up. now im over in done with him trying to do me but he’s not leting go im over in done crying everynight feeling like its all me i could have should have done this or that to save us. But it was nothing i could do he did his big one. now its 2008 in she has had the baby in guess what she left the kid in the hospital saying she does nt want him or the kid. He calls me after all he done now that im finally on the right track still single still hurt but able to go on. Telling me he need me, that he did wat he did because i was becomeing sucessfull and pretty much telling me that if i was nothing we would be together. Everytime i got rid on him he would use the kid to pull me in for help. Which puts a hold on me with any other man i try in meet. The last run in we had was this year 3 days befor my birthday he showed up with gifts crying but the hurt is still in always will be there i see the kid in cry he still wears the ring in guess wat she wears the ring he had for me. wat makes it so bad is that i HATE him for everything making me feel like s**t for growning up to be something which makes me question every man i mess with for now on. i feel scared for life… now thats my story (if im nothing then i can have him)

This is, by far, the most interesting forum by HB. Many of you brought the heartbreaks on yourselves, but still great stories…

I am a 27 year old woman who hasn’t let misfortune get the best of me. I grew up with parents who chose drugs and alcohol over me and my syblings. My maternal grandmother was all that we had. After she passed, I grew up in and out of foster homes. I’ve experienced any and everything that one could imagine. Just from all of the bad experiences that I’ve been handed, I pretty much came to the conclusion that no one would or could ever love me. On my 22nd birthday, I met a man who I instantly hit it off with. I had just met him on my birthday and he came to my home with flowers and a card for me. I had never experienced that before. He took me out to dinner and got me the prettiest necklace that I had ever owned. We instantly hit it off. I really thought he was going to love me for ever after a while of dating. We didn’t even make love for the first three months, which further made me believe that he really was there for me. Four months of us dating, he had went to prison for 15 months. Though he landed in a bad situation, I decided that I was going to ride it out with him. I honestly felt as if We were meant for each other. I didn’t have a car when he went away, so I worked extra hard and was blessed with a car, then, I moved us into a new apartment, and picked up a second job to ensure that I would be able to take care of him, myself, and the expenses. I never missed a visit, never cheated, and never lied to him. He would tell me how much he loved me and how he couldn’t wait to come home and pick up where we left off. Even though we were in the situation we were in, I wouldn’t and couldn’t leave him. I was all he had and vice versa. Finally, he returned home. I thanked God every day and night that he was finally back in my arms. I made sure the apartment was cleaned, his clothes were washed, ironed and put away, he never missed a meal, and on top of that, I was still working two jobs and preparing to enter into college to further myself for not only me, but us. A month after he came home, he started to act differently towards me. He started staying out all night and not answering his cell phone. I would cry myself to sleep at night and ask God why was the man I vowed to stand by began to treat me this way. After about two months of him being home, I became pregnant; then that’s when it all really began. He would stay gone for days at a time. Then I started hearing that he was back with his ex wife. The rumor was found to be true. He left me and moved to be back with her. I went through my first pregnancy by myself. At about five months, I was put on bed rest but because I had no one to help me, I had no choice but to continue on working and lifting grocery bags. I went into labor three weeks early. He was there to see her be born. He stayed with us for two weeks. In those weeks, I felt as if we would be a family again. But then, he left again. I cried so hard. Here I was alone with a brand new baby. I had no idea what to do. Thanks to the lord blessing me with inner strenghth, I got through it. I raised my baby as best I could. I was in college, when she turned six months, I was also working. I did it. I did it. I was so proud of myself. I was never with another man since I met him and to this day. My daughter is now going to be three in two months and I couldn’t be any more proud of her than I am now. She is so smart and intelligent. I have been on deans list since I began my college career. Looking back, I used to ask myself, do I regret going through any of it? My answer to that is no. It made me so strong and I am so proud of myself. I didn’t allow what a man did to my heart keep me down. Now, he comes along telling me how he is sorry that he put me throught that and broke my heart. I forgave him. I am strong enough to forgive. Rather I win this contest or not, I am so glad that I got the chance to share my story with other women. Just know that a man is just that, a man. He may have the power to break your heart and make you cry, but he doesn’t have the power to keep you down and stop your dreams from forming. Only you have that power. I am so glad that I didn’t give that power to him. After my harsh childhood and broken heart, God has blessed me with a beautiful baby girl who gives me strength to go on everyday. I used to think that no one would or could love me, but now, I love myself. And that is all that matters!

i wrote a poem for my heartbreak,its the only way i know how to express my emotions!

~lesson learned~

should i go or should we be
should a stay or set me free
you confuse me where do i stand
i give you my hand but its like one minute im your baby then the next you seem to have another lady
i cant put up with these phases im consistant hunny i dont cope with changes
i guess its true we werent meant to be but wow what things lust does to thee next time ive learned to move a lot slower let things flow and uncover you got the best of me yes its true but i promise the next guy wont get it as quick as you
mama warned me about you sweet talking fellas but i had to learn for myself, thats jus how it goes
i vow to never let my heart go ive learned a lot through you so i guess i do appreciate it but im OFFIALLY OVER YOU!

Well to begin I am 27 years old my heart got broken at the age of 15 when I liked the boy i went to school with he never wanted anyone to know we was talking or anything so I left him alone til one day he came to my house for my dad me being this your female still had feelings for him he asked me if we can have sex I told him no he left. A few days later he came back looking for my dad and my dad was there he asked my dad about some money he owed him my dad could not pay him so in return my dad traded me for the payment to him my heart was so broke because at one point i use to like him and the same person i like is the same person that is raping me and now from that rape I have a 11 year old son that don’t know his dad or grandfather because they don’t want any part of his life. Til this day my heart is still broken because I know my son wants his father and that is nothing i can do about it I don’t want his father to be anywhere near my son but it is hurting him and me.Sad a lost single mother who use to hate me because all they did to me was hurt me.

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If you cant turn around and sell the dress why would you want something someone has already warn….if she was a regular everyday person no one would want to wear the dress…come on now …how is a dress going to mend a persons broken heart unless the person is materialistic ….

damn all these stories u can tell which ones are lies, i would not take a hand me down dress dont care who that person is i have morals

WELL, AS I READ THESE STORIES, I AM REMINDED OF MY HEARTBREAK THAT HAS FOREVER CHANGED ME. GROWING UP, I WAS SHELTERED IN A WAY, UNTIL MY MOTHER GOT DRUNK, AND FORGOT TO LOOK OUT FOR HER DAUGHTERS. I HAD LOTS OF MALE ATTENTION GROWING UP, BECAUSE I USED TO MODEL, SO I GUESS IN SOME WAYS I WAS ATTRACTIVE. BUT AS A YOUNG GIRL, STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH MY HIPS AND THIGHS, I WAS ALMOST ASHAMED OF MYSELF. AFTER BEING MOLESTED FOR TWO AND A HALF YEARS BY MY COUSIN’S FATHER, I FELT TARNISHED IN SUCH A WAY THAT I TRIED TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE AT 16 YEARS OLD, WHEN EVERYONE FOUND OUT WHAT I HAD “LET” THIS MAN DO TO ME.

MY TRANSITION TO ACCEPTANCE CAME IN THE FORM OF THIS MAN, WHO COULD LOOK PAST MY BLEMISHES. I THOUGHT HE WOULD RESCUE ME, AND ALLOW ME TO FEEL WHOLE AGAIN. SO AT THE AGE OF 17 1/2, I GOT MY OWN APARTMENT, AND ALLOWED HIM TO LIVE WITH ME. NEVER DID I EVEN THINK THAT THIS MAN HAD AN ALTERIOR MOTIVE. NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT, HE DID EVERYTHING TO MAKE ME STAY IN NEED OF HIM. FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, I DIDN’T HAVE TO PRETEND THAT I WASN’T AFRAID. FOR ONCE I COULD TELL SOMEONE THAT I HAD ISSUES WITH BEING NAKED WITH A MAN, AND ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE TOUCHED. I’LL NEVER FORGET THE VERY FIRST NIGHT HE ATTEMPTED TO BED ME. I SHOOK AND CRIED. HE HELD ME UNTIL I CALMED DOWN. THATS ALL IT TOOK.

FROM THAT NIGHT ON, I WAS THE BEST WOMAN I COULD BE. NOW THAT I LOOK BACK, I WAS JUST SCREAMING FOR ATTENTION. THROUGH THIS “RELATIONSHIP,” HE LEFT MANY TIMES, ONLY TO RETURN WHEN THOSE OTHER FEMALES TIRED OF HIM, I GOT MY VERY FIRST STD, WHICH THANK GOD WAS CURABLE, AND I LEARNED THAT HE HAD ONLY NEEDED A PLACE TO STAY. I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE IDEA OF SECURITY, AND A CHANCE AT BEING NORMAL. HE EXPLOITED MY VULNERABILITY, MY KINDNESS, AND THE LOVE I SO FREELY GAVE. I AM NOW 29 YEARS OLD, AND DO NOT TRUST VERY EASILY. I SAW THIS MAN A FEW MONTHS AGO, FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE WE SPLIT. ( I FINALLY HAD THE COURAGE TO THROUGH HIS SORRY ASS OUT!) HE TAPPED ME ON THE SHOULDER. I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ENCOUNTER A MILLION TIMES. I HAD MAPPED OUT EXACTLY WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY, BUT NOTHING EVER CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH. HE SAID, “HELLO BEAUTIFUL,” AND ALL I DID WAS STARE. THIS MAN, WHO HAD IGNITED THIS GREAT FIRE WITHIN ME, WAS NO LONGER THAT EXCITEMENT. I SIMPLY TURNED AND WALKED AWAY. ONCE HOME, I SHED A FEW TEARS, BECAUSE I AM SOMEONE NOW THAT I DIDNT INTEND TO BE. I HOPE HE IS BLESSED, AND FINDS THAT HAPPINESS THAT HE COULD NOT EXCEPT WITH ME.

I got married at age 17. I was a young mother of a one year old, and the man and he actually shared the same name. He loved me, and he loved my son. I grew up in a very volitile situation, where praying for God to let me die was a regular thing that I did. He came into my life like a knight on shining armor and he changed my life completely. I was young and he was young and everyone said it would not last. We were married for 17 years. Through those times we both made our mistakes, as most couple have if they admit it. When I was 23 my father died and I was angry at not only the world, I was angry with God. I made ALOT of mistakes, and I am very lucky that my husband didnt leave me. We both admitted to our mistakes and moved on with our family. My husband was the most respected man in the town that we lived in, and everyone reminded me daily how lucky I was to have him. We were a prominent family in our church, and we lived a very good life. We were not rich, we were comfortable. He worked at the same company for 23 years, and was also in the Military as a Reservist. My mom was diagnosed with Kidney Cancer and my world again fell apart. I promised my husband I would deal with this better than I did my father’s illness because we were stronger and older. Both of us were in a good place I thought. Then along came 9-1-1. My husband was Activated and was told to report to his duty station in a matter of days. While dealing with the illness of my mother and the absence of my husband, my faith grew stronger and I became the mature woman that I thought he would only be proud of. Eventually my mother died, and I felt empty. But at the same time I felt blessed because after all I had lost I was blessed to have such a wonderful husband. I poured all of my heart, soul, mind, and spirit into my marriage and my family. My husband was still on
Active duty and we had lived apart for a few years by now with him coming home as much as he could. I worshiped this man. He was all I had left, and our children who were all teenagers by now. One day when he came home I tried to give him a simple hug, and he pulled away from me. long story short, my marriage of 20 years was over. He informed me that he did not want to be married anymore. He took his possesions and his money and left me and our children and once again the conversations with God about death were back. We were divorced in October, and in December he was remarried. I still havent gotten the knife out of my heart, but I take one day at a time. His mom died and I sat in the back of the church while he held onto his new wife and his new family. I have lost my parents, and that pain was enormous. But the loss of my husband of 20 years was the most painful thing that I have ever had to endure. They say it takes half of the time that you knew them to get past it. I have 6 more years to go before I will make it there. One day I wont wake up with his face in my head, or that same pain in my heart. But God and I talked about it, I wont be shedding anymore tears. But my heart break is not close to being over.

Im 21 years old and i met the love of my life when i was 16 and of course we had that perfect high school sweet heart kind of relationship and i honestly so far have never been happier than those days. We were together for 4 1/2 years and he cheated on me as many times as anyone could possibly imagine and don’t get it twisted i take responsibility for the fact that i stayed with him but none the less he broke my heart more times than i can possibly count and yet still i loved him with reckless abandon in spite of all the pain, we fought constantly pretty much on a daily basis but we still kept going. This one day though we woke up had a normal day no fuss no fight just a happy normal day we were both off from work we went out to eat and not once did we fight it was all together a perfect day, we got home some where around 9:30 PM and than he said he was going to go pick up his car from his parents house b/c his dad had borrowed it for a trip to Louisiana he asked me if i wanted to go with him and i asked him how long it would take he said probably a/b 15 min. so i was like no i’ll just see you when you get back he left and i went to sleep. I woke up a few hours later and he still wasnt home and i can’t explain how mad i was so i called him and surprisingly he answered i asked him where he was and why he wasnt home and he was like baby baby calm down im on my way right now so i was like okay well hurry up he said i will. I love you Dianna. i told him i loved him too and hung up the phone laid down and fell back asleep. At 6 AM there was a loud beating on my door at first i was pissed off and wasn’t gonna answer it but something.. i dont know what but something told me to turn around and answer the door so i did and there was Broderick my fiancees brother and i knew in that moment that he was dead i just broke down and started screaming Broderick grabbed me and hugged me and told me that Rafael hit a tree last night and he was dead. November 9th 2008. Next month will make 1 year and i still feel like it all happened yesterday, i miss him more than i ever thought i could ever miss anyone and i know that for me no matter how much time passes he will always be the one person i love more than anything else. He always told me he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and i guess he did. i honestly am not worried a/b getting any dress. tho i suppose it would be nice i just felt like taking the opportunity to tell my story and get it off of my chest.
R.I.P Rafael .T.D
I love you

I meet my son’s father when I was 19teen. He told me he was only 28. My mother told me I was too young for him and I didn’t listen. So 2 years went by I finish school and was ready to move on life. But he didn’t want me to, so when I tried to leave him he would hit, block the door flatting my tires. Tell one day I left work and he kidnapped me. Beat me tell I looked like the elephant woman. Then when I press charges on him come to find out for two years he had been lying to me he was 37 at the time and had a recorded with beating his wife. I wished I would have listened to my mother. I paid a high price for love.

ok well im nineteen years old and i thought that i would never fall in love with someone…i actually met this guy and i was head over heals for him. and that was very odd for me knowing that me im the type that always has my guard up because of being afraid of getting hurt. me and the guy talked about any and everything…he used to live in my area but ended up having to move with his grandparents on the west coast..so we decided to do the long distance thinghe told me about his exwife and his soon to be daughter and everything and i was willing to do so much for this guy. he asked me to marry him one day and i actually said yes. i was so happy because i never thought i can actually end up being someones wife especially at this age. he was talking about how he wanted to go to the army so he can provide for his daughter and also to start a new life with me. so that meaning that if he went to the army i would have to give up my life and my friends just to be with him wherever he decided that he wanted to be based at. i was really digging this whole future wifey thing. when we talked on the phone he told me how his ex wife cheated on him and never did nothing for herself and always just wanted to spend up money and spend money. he always told me he never wanted to be with someone like that. which i wasnt i was going to school and also working. after three weeks of engagement he instant messaged me and told me that he thinks we need to break up because he wanted to go and work it out with his exwife. i felt like my heart had torn into confetti. i didnt know what to do or to say. i decided to move on and just told myself that there will be other men out there for me that would love me for me just like i thought he did…so thats my broken heart story

Hello I want to start off by saying my name is Terrysh Frances and I live in Ontario Ca.Im 19 years old and I was born April 27,1990 so my life has been on its ups and downs it all started when I was in middle school.I would always be around the popular girls but never felt like I belonged in their group all the boys liked them but never had intrest in me I will always get made fun of no guy ever liked me.There were times when my own friends would turn their backs on me and treat me so wrong I would always think what did I do to be treated this way I was only like 13 years old.So going to high school was so scary to me because I had no kind of confedience I didnt know how to react if someone wantd to hang out with me.I was never apart of that click of girls were they would ask me to go and hang out at the mall so the year of 2006 I went to big bear with my church and when I came back I met my first love he was extacly a year and two weeks older than me.He was just the guy I was looking for and wanted in a boyfriend we did everything together and I finally thought that someone liked me for who I was and didnt care what others thought about me.But I was wrong he started to tell me someone else liked him at the church and I was so afriad he would leave me for that other person but he told me he loves me too much to do that to me.So I believed him and got my heart ripped out of my chest he started to see the girl that liked him at the church but I didnt know for a while than when I found out that he was he was also living with her and her parents even the girl and her mamma didnt want to tell me.They changed his number and blocked me from his myspace and hardly brought him to church even though all my family and friends told me he didnt love me and he wanted to be with someone else I still continued to see him and try to get him to change only because I thought I could cause he was with me first I didnt want to let him go he was my first love I cared for him so much.So than I realized he was playing me and he would come see me when he wanted to or when his girlfriend wasn’t home my mom told me over and over to leave him alone but I didnt I thought she was so wrong I thought I could change him.So just to make things worse he would right me on my yahoo alot telling me he missed me and wanted to marry me and wanted me to have his kids and everything well while he was writing me that he was getting ready to get married to the girlfriend he left me for.And on top of that they got married next to my grandmas house I saw him get out his limo and walk into church it crushed me so bad.So yes my first love is now married to someone after leaving me it just brought me down even more because I trusted him he was like my best friend but he broke me down again.Now they just had a baby together but in the end im happly with someone to but my ex crushed me for life because I had so much love for him.

Everybody goes through things, and it is up to you to get out of them. To live your life to the fullest no matter what may go on in your everyday life. I was brought up in in ok environment. I didn’t get into guys till about 18 years old. I’m 22 years old now, and I’m thankful I am alive till this day. I had been through up and downs with guys from 18 to 22 years old. I didn’t know how bad it would be at 20 years old when a dude I was dating gave me something and of course he brushed it off and what not , then I’m glad everything was ok and what not. I’m 22 years old now and dealing with alot! Protect yourself young females no matter what. Babies and Std’s is on the rise, and trust me its not fun until you deal with it. I praythat everyone take care of themselves, love themselves, and believe that their is a Lord and Savior up above. I hope this help someone out there.

When I was 23 years old I met this guy that was my total opposite, meaning he was dark skinned I only talked to light skinned he was short I only talked to tall etc. Anyways we met and hooked up we met b/c my mom was in the hospital having some heart catherizations done and he wheeled my mom to her room before she had them done. We dated for a little bit and then he had a foot surgery went to stay with his parents in Jacksonville, NC begged them to bring him back so that he could stay with me. Upon him returning back to town I picked him and his stuff up, at the time he had no money, no hot water, no food, no car, no anything in his home or his possession. I took it upon myself to take care of this man with my money, car, food, etc. We were together for about 2 months strong you never saw him w/out me or me w/out him. The day I found out I was pregnant by him ( the 11th woman to be pregnant by him the only 1 to have his child proved by DANA the DNA test) we broke up. I was 4 1/2 weeks pregnant by him the sad part about it I helped him get over 15,000 back pay from the VA and he left me went back to his EX-Girlfriend the golddigger that had 4 children none of them his I was pregnant with his only child. I was devastated b/c I was in love with this man to top it off he promised me when I was 5 months pregnant we would be back together instead he married her when I was 5 months pregnant, slept with me the day before and the day after the wedding not even telling me. How I found out he was married I went to the courthouse and pulled it up b/c it is a public record and when he came back to my house to get a quickie I threw the paper at him. I cried for about 2 months b/c I had my hopes on being with this man and raising my daughter with him. i was in love he left me at 6 wk pregnant married another woman at 5 months pregnant and kept coming back. To this day he tells me I have his heart and I’m the one he wants to be with, I have a closer relationship with his parents than their daughter in law. Every time he needs to go to the ER he calls me so he lost out on a good woman and my daughter lost out on a father. Am I broken hearted about it absolutely b/c I loved that man with my heart mind and soul there was nothing in that I would not do for him and he knew it.

I WOULD LIKE TO FIT IN DAT DRESS BUT IM TOO BIG TO GET IN DAT BYTCH SO ILL PASS LOL 17TH NELL

My name is Candi and Im now 24 years old, I got my first heart break at 19. It still hurts till this day. I met him when i was 18 at his mothers hair salon, he was a barber there. He seemed so into me, so it to me that he ask around to find me again. So we started dating, show me so much attention and love I thought. I even took him to my prom. SO 1day I was at work and my co worker ask me who i was dating and I told her. I couldnt never imagine how words can hurt you so much. She told me her friend was 8 months pregnant by him. It crushed me so bad. So i confronted him and he told me that she told him she was pregnant when she was 6 months. We was together all that time he didnt know how to tell me. So my young minded self believe him and stay with him. So a month an half past the baby was a week old. My boyfriend got murdered. That was one of the worst days of my life. Seeing someone and touching them everyday and the next day they are gone. So I went to the funeral and I got the second shock of my life. Other women claiming he was there boyfriend. Then I seen his son mother and his family refering her and his fiancee. I was shocked because his mother new of me. I was look at the funeral as the mistress. Getting stared at and talked about by the people that knew we was together. I was so embarrased. The messed up thing about it I cant even confront him about it and ask him why? I was so hurt that he died and love I thought we had was a lie. It hurts like hell but I learn that God have a plan for me and he was in it. I Got to move forward and never look back. Im human I still miss him and cry at times but I know God is gonna bless with someone that truly loves me and faithful to me. Im not giving up on love, i know it going to happen. Candi

Hi everyone, I’m a 21 year old young adult.I don’t know much about break ups but i do have story to share.I was 15 i meant this guy. He was older and everything by only three years.I know we couldn’t be but I didn’t want to stop seeing him. So i did the thing that most teens do sneak around and spend time. We ended up seeing eachother on and off for 5 years we just last year stop talking.I love him so much still that was my first real guy. But we was just in different worlds. My mom didn’t approve she still don’t. We talked about getting merried last year and we had a pregancy scare. But we was so different and so he told me we couldn’t be. I never been hurt or so confused on why he could do such a thing.or why he could be so heartless. I cried to sleep many nights. Moped around. My mom hated that I did but that was my way of dealing with the pain. Now every time i hear or someone with the name Lamar trys to talk to me i run the other way. Because I don’t want to be let down twice and I don’t want to feel as if it was the end of the world. Plus life have no purpose. When it do, you just got to keep your head up and keep going.life may not be the same but you can change it just like a love can come and go.you can all ways fix a broken heart no matter how many beatings it took. To get it right for someone worth waiting for……

I’m Tasha and honestly maybe it’s just the pregnant hormones getting me so emotional towards the situation, because normally I’m pretty strong. Well, here goes.
Shortly after my 18th birthday, I met a man that seemed so perfect (other than the fact he was 27 yrs my senior). He was the father that my son never had. Since his dad went to jail; it was just me and little Bobby. Until I met”Miami,” who has been there for us since my little guy was 4 months old. We lived together 2 months later.
November of ’08 I gave him his first child, a little girl, EmmaLia. We had been engaged for 3 months before she was born and I’m now expecting his son due this November, we still haven’t married.
I found a marriage certificate a couple months later. His nieces informed me that his ex wife began smoking rock and they separated. He said he had been trying to get her to sign the paperwork. Since his part was filled out I believed him. We moved on.
Shortly after our money started coming up short every month. His pay checks bouncing at the club got smaller and smaller. Then he started borrowing money from my tile setting pay checks. Even the money I make doing tattoos was disappearing. For being a 220 lbs man at 6’2″ he started really loosing bulk and stopped eating with the family.
I started finding strange text messages on his phone. I asked him what was up and he blew up on me. I was already really showing. He proceeded to tell me it wasn’t mah f^cking business. Saying what he decided to do with our money was his choice. I went into false labor. He dropped our kids off at my aunts house and let me go to the hospitol alone. He disappeared for three days and came home smelling like ass and dead broke.
I decided it was over and he started saying that our daughter isn’t his, neither was our unborn son.
I got a email from his ex wife about three weeks ago telling me that she’s sorry that she didn’t know I had had his daughter and that I should just get rid of the one on the way because he’s going home to her. She proceeded to inform me that they have been getting together on the sly since he got me preg with our daughter. So roughly a year ago. From what she says he couldn’t get HER pregnant – so he wasn’t meant to have children.
He still calls constantly and gets to see our daughter who is 10 months old now and my son who is now 2 1/2 yrs old. So I guess it’s not all bad since he still wants to see the kids but It’s more braking my heart that he changed so quickly for her and I’m not gonna let him be around our kids if he’s on that sh*t.

~I would just like to say first and foremost…Thank You for giving me this venue to finally get this off of my chest.

~My name is Jaye Gardner and I have always felt that I was meant to be a wife and a mother. Well…on February 14th 1993…the BEST thing outside of being with the man I was with at the time…was finding out that I was pregnant. Now…I had already been through 3 miscarriages before hand, but something felt different about this time. I was extremely happy and so was he. We went to Lamaze’ classes together and went through the whole morning sickness stuff and everything.

~I don’t know how…but I could just tell that I was gonna have a Beautiful Baby Boy. Also, the fact that only boy names came to mind. After alot of thought we decided on the name *Darrien Savon Raynard Stallworth*. I thought that it was the Most Beautiful name in the world. So finally after many months of excitement and anticipation, it was getting close to the time where I would finally get to see my sweet baby’s face.

~Now…I had my final doctor’s appointment on Wednesday, December 8th and the doctor told me that it would be anytime now that I would have my baby. After church on Thursday night December 9th, something felt weird. I started to have a lot of discomfort and felt pressure, so I did what I had learned in Lamaze’ class and I called my doctor. He just told me that if the pain got worse, head on over to the hospital…but if it stayed the same that I was probably having *Braxton Hicks* contractions better known as “false labor” pains.

~So, anyway…as the night went on the pain never really changed. In fact…It was still just discomfort. I “cat-napped” off and on up until morning. I would say at about 7am, I took a shower to kinda relax myself and take the edge off of some serious pain that had begun in my lower back. (Not to sound to graphic, but anyone reading this that has given birth will understand.) While in the shower, my mucus plug had fallen out pain was hitting me like crazy. My water had not broken yet though. At this point…I head on over to the hospital. Now, I figure as many dry-runs that we had taken…that my boyfriend must have really had it down, because he worked a good 30min. away and he met the ambulance as it pulled up to the hospital.

~Here I am like “Oh…Happy Day!!!” I was taken the back, all the nurses were telling me “Congrats and Happy Birthday to my Darrien”. The nurse comes in and puts that little microphone to my belly to hear the baby’s heartbeat…now she could not find it right away, but I wasn’t alarmed. It was always kinda hard to get, because Darrien was always moving around.She finally got it, but it sounded so faint and far away. So, as a precaution they took me to get an ultrasound. Now…I would have been okay about it if the ultrasound tech would have let me look at my baby. That is when I felt that something was extremely wrong. When I asked “why can’t I see my baby?” She just kept telling me to ask my doctor.

~Here I am trying not to think the worst, because I actually carried this one full term. I just thought: Maybe the baby had some sort of birth defect, or that the baby had to have surgery or something. Nothing in the world could have prepared me for what the doctor said to me when he came in my room. With his tear-filled eyes…my doctor told me that my sweet baby was…DEAD!!!

~I could not believe my ears and I looked at my boyfriend to see the reaction on his face…because maybe if I saw his reaction, then maybe the sound would come back in the room and I would realize what the heck he had just said. Now…I really think that my mind instantly went into denial mode, because I did not even cry. An hour later, my sweet baby boy was born. My mind was really tripping me, because the way they were running around with him…you know getting his weight, and footprints and stuff like that, I knew that they had made a mistake and that he was okay. It was when they let me hold him that I realized that he was gone. Outside of his marroon-colored lips and his tiny, little tongue hanging out of his mouth…he appeared to be just sleeping. He looked so peaceful and warm. I could not cry for some reason, and I didn’t understand it…because I LOVED that little boy more than myself, and his father was bawling uncontrollably.

~I held my baby until he started to change a pale grey color and couldn’t take seeing him that way so he was taken to the morgue until funeral arrangements were made. On the day of my son’s funeral…it was a brisk,cool morning. I had a gravesite funeral…he had a beautiful white casket with white satin interior.The outside was draped with the comforter that I had made for him. I swear, it wasn’t until after the pastor spoke and he getting ready to be put in the ground…that I was able to cry. It seemed like I started crying and couldn’t stop. I got down on my knees by his casket and rain started to pour, but I didn’t care…because I was saying farewell to my baby. I always thought that my children would be the one’s to out live and bury me, and there I was burying my first born. That was the worst Heartache and Heartbreak that I had ever felt in my life. I did not realize how raw my emotions still are even after all these years, because I didn’t realize that tears had been running down my face the entire time I was writing this.

~I now have 3 Beautiful daughters that God has blessed me with…and even though Darrien never took a breath outside my womb, I still tell my daughter’s about their brother and how I knew him on the inside for 9 glorious months. I tell you what…if I knew then what I know now, I would have gladly given my life for my son. This Year…I celebrate the 16th anniversary of my baby. I miss him and I Love him Dearly…He will never leave my mind or my Heart.

R.I.P
Darrien Savon Raynard Stallworth (12/10/93)
I LOVE YOU!!!

You go Beyonce you is doing your thing and it is nice look good and very successful. I love her clothes they are nice and I have some myself. You go girl you know what you are doing. Keep up the Good work Baby Girl /.\

HELLO BUETIFUL,MY NAME IS AVRIL MY HEARTBREAK CAME WITH THE LOSS OF A GOOD JOB I WAS BLESSED WITH. AND NOT BECAUSE OF THE TROUBLE THE COMES WITH LOSING YOUR NEST EGG BUT RATHER THE CONCERN FOR A PEOPLE THAT CAN’T FEND FOR THEMSELVES.IT GEOS LIKE THIS I WORK WITH MENTALLY ILL PEAOPLE ANYONE IN THIS LINE OF WORK KNOWS U HAVE TO HAVE SPECIAL QUALITIES AS A PERSON TO DEAL WITH MENTALLY ILL BUT I LUVED MY RESIDENTS I CARED FOR THEM LIKE THEY WERE MINE I CRIED WEN THEY CRIED AND LAUGHED WEN THEY DID I WOULD GET UPSET WITH THEM THEN BE RIGHT BACK LUVING ON THEM WELL I WORK 5 YRS WITH A CERTAIN GROUP OR RESIDENTS AND ONE DAY DUE TO DOWNSIZING I GOT TRANSFERD TO ANOTHER LOCATION AND FELL IN LUV WITH SUM MOORE NEW PEOPLE WELL I WAS THE NEW KID ON THE BLOCK AND SOME OF MY CO-WORKERS BECAME ENVIOUS OF ME BECAUSE I WOULD WATCH THEM MISTREAT THE RESIDENTS AND I WOULD SAY SOMTHING ABOUT IT I FELT THE HATE AROUND ME (U KNOW WEN UR NOT WELCOMED) WELL THE SET ME UP TOLD MY SUPERVISOR I WAS NEGLECTFUL WITH ON OF THE RESIDENTS(AND IT WAS SO NOT TRU) HE BELIEVED THEM AND I WAS PUT ON LEAVE W/ PAY AND THE FINAL DECCISION WAS TO TERMINATE ME I HAD SUCH A PAIN IN MY HEART BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH I CARED FOR THEM I WOULD SOMTIMES STAY AN HOUR PAST MY TIME IF MY DUTIES WERE NOT FINISHED WOULD COVER FOR ANOTHER CO-WORKERS SHIFT THINGS OTHERS WOULD NOT DO CAUSE THATS THE KIND OF WORKER I AM ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS THE ONES WHO R DOING THEM WRONG WAS STILL EMPLOYYED DOING GOD KNOWS WAT BUT GOD IS STILL GOOD AND MY GOOD DEEDS WILL NOT GO TO WAIST AND NEITHER WILL URS SINCERLY, GOOD HEARTED SINGLE PARENT.

HELLO BUETIFUL,MY NAME IS AVRIL MY HEARTBREAK CAME WITH THE LOSS OF A GOOD JOB I WAS BLESSED WITH. AND NOT BECAUSE OF THE TROUBLE THE COMES WITH LOSING YOUR NEST EGG BUT RATHER THE CONCERN FOR A PEOPLE THAT CAN’T FEND FOR THEMSELVES.IT GEOS LIKE THIS I WORK WITH MENTALLY ILL PEAOPLE ANYONE IN THIS LINE OF WORK KNOWS U HAVE TO HAVE SPECIAL QUALITIES AS A PERSON TO DEAL WITH MENTALLY ILL BUT I LUVED MY RESIDENTS I CARED FOR THEM LIKE THEY WERE MINE I CRIED WEN THEY CRIED AND LAUGHED WEN THEY DID I WOULD GET UPSET WITH THEM THEN BE RIGHT BACK LUVING ON THEM WELL I WORK 5 YRS WITH A CERTAIN GROUP OR RESIDENTS AND ONE DAY DUE TO DOWNSIZING I GOT TRANSFERD TO ANOTHER LOCATION AND FELL IN LUV WITH SUM MOORE NEW PEOPLE WELL I WAS THE NEW KID ON THE BLOCK AND SOME OF MY CO-WORKERS BECAME ENVIOUS OF ME BECAUSE I WOULD WATCH THEM MISTREAT THE RESIDENTS AND I WOULD SAY SOMTHING ABOUT IT I FELT THE HATE AROUND ME (U KNOW WEN UR NOT WELCOMED) WELL THEY SET ME UP TOLD MY SUPERVISOR I WAS NEGLECTFUL WITH ON OF THE RESIDENTS(AND IT WAS SO NOT TRU) HE BELIEVED THEM AND I WAS PUT ON LEAVE W/ PAY AND THE FINAL DECCISION WAS TO TERMINATE ME I HAD SUCH A PAIN IN MY HEART BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH I CARED FOR THEM I WOULD SOMTIMES STAY AN HOUR PAST MY TIME IF MY DUTIES WERE NOT FINISHED WOULD COVER FOR ANOTHER CO-WORKERS SHIFT THINGS OTHERS WOULD NOT DO CAUSE THATS THE KIND OF WORKER I AM ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS THE ONES WHO R DOING THEM WRONG WAS STILL EMPLOYYED DOING GOD KNOWS WAT BUT GOD IS STILL GOOD AND MY GOOD DEEDS WILL NOT GO TO WAIST AND NEITHER WILL URS SINCERLY, GOOD HEARTED SINGLE PARENT.

hello beautiful my name is Roseanna Payton wow i didnt kno how to start my story off i just start frm the begining i was a drug baby growin up my mother was on drugs and i never knew my father i was place with my auntie wen i was six after finding out that i was molested by my stepfather i was made fun pf all during school because iam a hairy girl but i didnt let that get me dwn at the age of 18 i was married and still no word frm my birth mother rumor was that she didnt want me and my other sibling so i continue to move forward i had to leave high school wen i was in the 11th grade because of ppl making fun of me after six months of marriage i decide to go my seperate way and havent turn my back yet rain across a dude that i start me mess with and come to find out that he had seizures i was his bytch his hoe wen he couldnt get his way and knowin me i love hard earlier dhis year he died he had a seizure and didnt come out of it then the only man that i knew as father passed away he had a heart attack ny heart was torn and broke i moved to beaumont to stay with a dude that i have met off of a telephone chatline i thought all was gud and come to find out that not only was he bipolar but he was also abusive fighting with him all the time took me to stress loose weight and didnt kno wat i was going to do i left after tragically loosing my child wen i was 5 months pregnant and knowing the man that i love didnt care abt me at all since then i been trying to get myself together i dont have any kids and to make my life better i deal with my looks and body image all the time i notice through all the pain and suffering i have been through was for a reason and kno that god was watching over me i never stop believing and stay having faith in him because through him all things is possible i love beyonce and she is 1 of my inspiration god bless Roseanna Payton

Since the day I realized how big the world is, I decided that my life would be filled with purpose, even though I was so young I had big dreams. I was born in a small town in Massachusetts , which was at the time majority white. My father was and still is extremely racist, and tried to bring me up the same way. I dealt with many encounters of prejudice, discrimination, and just pure hatred of who I was. I grew up resenting myself, my race, everything about being black. I guess you can say I never felt worthy enough until now.
Today, I live in Fayetteville, North Carolina with my 4 year old daughter. Unfortunately, I am a single mother and have been for two years now. I left her father when she was two. He was horribly abusive physically and emotionally. I remember our first fight, I was two months pregnant, and he came home late and drunk. He wanted sex, I said no, he slapped me, and continued to kick me after I fell to the floor. The fight continued into the bathroom, I picked up a piece of glass and stabbed him in his hand, he released me. I ran as fast as I could until I got to the door I felt his foot kick me down the steps. I fell to the rocky glass covered ground. I was scarred from head to toe, not to mention sick as a dog from crying and pregnancy. That day I began to fear him, like no other, I felt like I had no one to turn to, couldn’t tell anyone. My mom convinced me to press charges, but I was so stupid that I went to court with the scars on my face and begged the district attorney to drop the charges. I remember vividly her saying “ look at your face, you are still scarred ,are you sure? I felt like an idiot. For the remainder of my pregnancy, I stayed at home alone mostly, embarrassed that I was being treated like a prisoner, and accepting it. When my daughter was born, he was unimpressed. He resented her like I did him. Honestly I believed he was jealous that I loved her more than him, and spent much more time too. I on the other hand never had been more happy, I finally had that person who loved me for real ,everything I did, and she always had a smile or stinky diaper for me to change. To me that was her saying Mommy I’m here, for you and we can do this together. I always prayed for God to send me an angel to love me unconditionally and there she was. I just did not have the confidence or strength to leave him. Once I remember him saying that I need to spend more time with him, or he was going to find someone else and he did. We were together for five years, two before my daughter. I thought that sooner or later he might learn to love me. No one could imagine being trapped in a relationship, and that person you love and choose to continue to be with is abusing you daily, and telling you that you deserve to be treated that way.
The day I finally left him after five long depressing years, he was at work. I packed as much as I could and went to my mother’s house, of course he followed us there. He begged and apologized a thousand times but I couldn’t go back. One day while we were still living together, he hit me with my daughter in my arms. He was crazy, and the relationship was making me be just as crazy as him. I was afraid to leave my mother’s house and I would never stay home alone, until that dreadful day.
I woke up that morning and the house was empty, my mom had my daughter with her, I wasn’t expecting anything to happen. I got out of bed, suddenly the phone rang. It was him. He said he missed us, and wanted to talk. I was vulnerable, because it had been weeks since I saw him or heard his voice. Stupidly, I let him come over, and we began to talk about nonchalant little things, then the conversation took a turn for the worst. He began to accuse me of cheating on him, I denied it, which ended in him choking me. I was so tired of being beaten and talked down to, I struck him as hard as I could and knocked out one of his teeth. My neighbors came into the house and broke up the fight, and called the police. I was bleeding, he was bleeding but it felt so good to defend myself, even the police officers were surprised at how good I’d got him. However after the fight we both went to jail for the night. As I sat in jail, on that hard bed eating my disgusting food, I stopped loving him, that may sound silly to say after all that but I had to cherish me and my life. I learned an important lesson that day never to trust him ever again, he had my life in his hands and tried to take it. I also realized my true worth and potential, not to mention the most important aspect of my life my beautiful, strong little girl who tells me now at four years old every time I get flustered,‘ Mommy don’t give up, it’s okay’, words of wisdom.
Although I had my confidence back, he still instilled fear in me. I moved out of my mother’s house, into my own apartment. I promised her I would not let him know where I lived. I told him of course, and he instantly tried to move in and take over. He had a hold on me, although he was no longer my heart. I was literally afraid for my life, I couldn’t tell him to leave because I didn’t want to fight, so called the cops. He disappeared before they arrived, but little did I know he stole my house keys. I was shellshocked, I knew he was going to kill me for kicking him out and calling the cops on him. I had to leave my apartment unlocked for three days. I finally went back, and he had vandalized the whole place, burned and bleached my clothes. He had completely trashed my apartment, and to put gas on a fire the police said that since he lived with me in the past they could not do anything. I was royally pissed, no longer afraid , just mad as hell. I wanted to kill him, I lost all sense of sense. I went looking for him with a 9mm gun, and six bullets. Only by the grace of God I did not find him. He had not come back to my home or my mother’s home since that night, that I knew of. Days and weeks passed by, no sign of him. Then one day, I had a male at my house. We were seated on my couch in front of my windows. I noticed movement outside, and thought nothing of it, until it seemed a little too close to my apartment. It was him again, standing outside my window menacingly, in broad daylight holding a gun in his hand like he was going to shoot us. I thank God he did not kill me that day, he has had many opportunites to do so.
I believe in God officially because I know there was someone up there watching out for me to keep me alive, and touch that man‘s heart so he could not kill me. All those times I was being choked, and kicked around my daughter was born with a clean bill of health. It is God who has given me, my self-respect back, my love for myself, and others. I can thank God for helping me to forgive my daughter’s father for all that pain I went through. Now I know what people mean when they say he may not come when you want him but he’ll be there right on time. My life has been change for the good, and only with God’s will. There are many nonbelievers out there who need to go through the fire to see the error of their ways. Well I’m done and I want what God has for me, and plan to receive it. I always knew God had a plan for me all along, it’s just that I was blinded by demons, and evil-spirited people who could not see any wrong in what they were doing. God is so good.

I decided to attend Friday night happy hour with my good friend named Shane. Shane who is gay has been asking me for months to go out with him for drinks at his favorite gay bar. When we arrived at the bar Shane had the tab rolling and the drinks flowing. After a couple of drinks under my belt, I got on the dance floor and started to get my groove on. As I was dropping it like it was hot, I looked across the room and saw someone that looked very familiar. I thought I must have had one too many drinks so I adjusted my eyeglasses and looked across the room again, and it was my fiancé dancing and hugged up with another man. All I could do is scream, “Hell to the no!” I ran off that dance floor and found my friend Shane and told him he better get me out this club before I start turning over tables. My fiance never even noticed me because he was so busy grinding with his male dance partner. While driving me home Shane confessed that he knew my boyfriend was a down-low brother and that is why he invited me to the club so I could see it with my own eyes.
He had to pull the car over several times because I felt sick to my stomach. When I got home I decided to bake some Chocolate Chip cookies but instead of using chocolate chips, I used Ex-Lax. I wrote a note for my fiance stating, “I hope you have a great weekend and I made your favorite cookies for you. Bon Appetite!” Then I went up stairs and packed up all my clothes and walked out of that house like a Super Model with my head high. My fiance called me a couple days later and told me he was in the restroom for three days after eating the cookies I made. I told him I wanted him to feel like I did when I found out he was a down-low brother, and that was like “sh!t”.

NOW THIS IS NICE HELLO BEAUTIFUL IS SUPPOSED TO BE FOR WOMEN HERE ON BLACK PLANET. THIS IS A NICE CONTEST BECAUSE SOMETIMES WE WOMEN NEED TO GET THESE THINGS OFF OUR CHEST SO THAT WE CAN MOVE ON AND SHARING THESE STORIES MAY HELP OTHERS AS WELL SO BRAVO HELLO BEAUTIFUL FOR UPLIFTING WOMEN FOR A CHANGE AND ACTUALLY SHOWING US THAT YOU ARE “FOR” WOMEN AND NOT ALWAYS TRYING TO DRAG US DOWN AND HELP TO LOWER OUR SELF ESTEEM WITH SO MUCH NEGATIVITY. THIS CAN ACTUALLY TURN THE NEGATIVE INTO THE POSITIVE FOR THE WRITERS AS WELL AS THE READERS. GOOD FOR YOU AUDELIA AND GREAT FOR YOUR FRIEND SHANE

I think this is wonderful having a chance to vent my feelings although its been awhile. My dilemna began in 2007 but I still feel the pain today . I believed we had a good relationship we were neighbors, we enjoyed doing many things together but most of all we were there for each other when we needed it . While I was under the impression we were in a serious relationship he considered me his friend. I never noticed until a family member suggested I question my position. When I asked he turned on me like the child of satan that he is saying he thought we were just friends. After that women frequented his house so much I thought I lived across from a brothel. I felt so distraught I moved to another state and realized running didn’t help. Since then I see men in a very different light always use caution because they wear their abuse with pride.

Go back to my high school love. Nice country boy coming from north carolina. Comes to work at the resturant i was working. Now i have never dated outside my race. unitl he came along. Tall skinny white boy with a barry white type voice sexy blueish gray eyes single plates dirty blonde hair a whit tee shirt old blue jeans and some white and blue tennis shoes. Man that outfit may have not been it. But i had to train him. When he opened his mouth and introduced himself. i was surprised i didn’t hit the floor. “Hi i’m CJ, i’m not from here.” I remember everything like it was yesterday. The first day i felt so weird him being there. i was like i have to keep it business. because i was assist mang in training. Every chance i got to break away from my trainee(cj) i was just so giddy i needed girl time. Basically at the job another young lady seen i liked him and started flirting. Not knowing at that time that he didn’t date his own race. He said i am interested in ashley. Man i am dark choclate but i was red as a rassberry that day, lol. (2002)
We are now in 2003. I helped him get his GED. Then thru the death of his father which still he blames hiself for. Also helped him with the test for the army and to get thru basic training. He was there for my grad from high school in (2004). During this whole time my father is telling me he is no good for you. You deserve better. It wasn’t because of his race. To this day i wish i would have listened to my dad. 2004 i received a scholarship for Howard University. Graduated with high honors. My father was happy. June of that year i found out i was pregnant. Cj had proposed to me right after my graduation. It was his fathers last statement he said to him. I went to my mother and father told him both of the news. I thought they would be happy. Not them. My mother pushed me down the steps and smacked me. Out the door. Then dragged me back in went downstairs to my father talked to him. He punched me in my chest and smacked me. I felt so worthless. Cj was already at basic training at this time in kentucky. I got thru to him once my family had told me they were kicking me out. He called his best friend. Who was also out of town. For a week i was on the street. Then when his friend came back in town i stayed with them for 2 weeks. Once those 2 weeks were done i moved with my friend and his wife. My mother and father did not talk to me or worry about me unitl i got the chance to talk to my grandmother. She asked them why they did that. Told me that i wouldn’t be the oldest. My mother was pregnant before. During this whole time i held a job at RUBY TUESDAY’S. Finding my own way back and forth to work. Cold on a bus. She told me to come back. I did for the last week and a half before i left to go to KY. She never apologized. Nor did he. I go to KY and get married March 17th of 05. MY daughter was born May 7th 0f 05 in Texas. April 05 is when he started cheating. I went to God on the whole matter. Did counseling. We was fine for 4 Months then he went back and he got worse this time around. I paid for the apartment we were living in. Also put my name on the car we had. He left my daughter and i in the house for almost a week without any food. We didn’t see him for almost 2 weeks. I stayed praying and going to church. During this time my mother and i relationship improved. It’s a whole lot of detail to all of this, if you coud play it through my head as if it was a movie you wouldn’t know what to say. To get to the point. It’s almost time for him to go to iraq. He has a baby on the way from an under age youg lady La’toya. Yet i stayed to see him off. I moved back with my mom in MD. She was calling meaning La’toya calling my phone asking about him. Added stress. 2006 jan time. i had drove to NC to see him for his R&R. we had a nice time. Talked about making our marriage work. Went to drop him off at the ariport. I say goodbye to his mother. So i cna drive back to MD to make it to work ontime.
I get an email to my phone stating:
Baby, i’m sorry i don’t want to be with you. I do love you and you are and will be the perfect wife to someone some day. Driving home to MD thru Va i recived a $365. ticket. Never drive while you are mad.
It is now 2009. My daughter is 4 years old. She has not seen her father since before her 2nd birthday. I have given him chances to come get her. I am also still trying to seek a divorce and still he won’t give it to me. He now has 4 other kids outside of my daugther. Does not pay child support. He has messed my credit up. Drag me thru the dirt. I still have love for him and i would love for him to be able to give my daughter what she deserves.

There is so much more to this. My hand is hurting. I have to get to work yet if you would like to know the rest you can email me PLUSH.DIVAZ@YAHOO.COM

I THOUGHT THAT I HAD ME THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AT 18. IT WAS MY FIRST SEMESTER IN COLLEGE AND I WAS BUYING A CANDYBAR FROM THE VENDING MACHINE. HE WALKS UP BEHIND ME AND ASKS IF I WAS GONNA BUY HIM SOMETHING AS WELL. I REPLIED “I ONLY HAVE ENOUGH FOR ME”. WE LAUGHED IT OFF AND HIT IT OFF BY CONVERSATION ABOUT MY BACKGROUND, HIS BACKGROUND, SPIRITUALITY AND ETC. I TAKE A LOOK AT THE TIME AND THIS GUY HAS ME LATE FOR MY CLASS. I TELL HIM IF HE WANTS TO CONTINUE THE CONVERSTION HE NEES TO TO MEET ME AFTER WORK THAT NIGHT AROUND 8PM. I WORKED IN THE SCHOOL LIBRARY SO HE WAS THERE WHEN I WALKED OUT THE DOOR WAITING AT 8PM. I WAS FLATTERED. I WAS A VIRGIN ALSO, SO I THOUGHT IT WAS OK TO TELL HIM THAT BECAUSE HE WASN’T A NATIVE FROM THAT AREA AND HE WAS LOOKING FOR SOMETHING DIFFERENT LIKE I WAS. HE WAS SUCH A GENTLEMEN, THAT I JUST KNEW IF I TOOK IT TO THE NEXT LEVEL HE WOULD BE THE RIGHT ONE OUT OF EVERY BODY ELSE. SO I DID AND I ENDED THE SECOND SEMESTER BEING PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD EXPECTING TO GIVE BIRTH THE SAME YEAR. WE WERE IN LOVE SO WHATEVER OBSTACLES WE HAD WE HANDLED THEM TOGETHER ,THAT WAS THE PLAN. I MOVED AWAY FOR THAT SUMMER BECAUSE I DIDNT HAVE THE FAMILY SUPPORT I NEED FROM MY PARENTS A FAR AS DOCTOR VISITS, RELIABLE TRANSPORTATION, EATING NUTRIOUSLY. I MOVED AWAY WITH FAMILY MEMBER ON MY DAD SIDE IN ANOTHER CITY. IT WAS HARD BEING AWAY FROM HIM BUT HE FOUND WAYS TO SEE ME EVERY OTHER WEEK OR SO. HE WASN’T WORKING, NEITHER WAS I SO I DIDNT HAVE ANY MATERNITY CLOTHES. WHEN HE FINALLY GOT A JOB, HE BOUGHT ME TWO OUTFITS OUT OF THE REMAINING 5 MONTHES I HAD LEFT TO GO, AND TOOK THE REST OF HIS CASH AND DID WHAT HE WANTED TO DO WITH IT. SCHOOL STARTED BACK THAT FALL AND I WAS 7 MONTHS. THERE WERE SO MUCH TENSION BETWEEN US THAT WE BARELY WOULD SPEND TIME. I CONTINUED MY EDUCATION, AND DROVE AN HOUR TO SCHOOL 3 DAYS OUT OF THE WEEK JUST SO THAT I WOULDN’T LOSE MY PASSION FOR AN EDUCATION TO BETTER MYSELF IN THE LONG RUN. ONE DAY I GET A PHONE CALL FROM A RELATIVE OF MINE SAYING THAT HER ROOMATE WAS TALKING ABOUT SHE SLEPT WITH MY CHILDS FATHER. APPARENTLY THIS GIRL KNEW ABOUT ME, WHEN I MY DUE DATE WAS, WHAT I LOOKED LIKE, HIS BACKGROUND ETC, HE HAD BEEN SPENDING TIME WITH HER SHARING PERSONAL THINGS ABOUT US. I DIDNT KNOW WHO SHE WAS SO I ASK AROUND AND FINDS HER, CONFRONTS HER AND SHE SPILLS IT OUT. SHE HAD EVERY DETAIL WRITTEN DOWN ABOUT WHAT THEY DID AND SHE EVEN WENT AS FAR AS DESCRIBING HIS UNDERWEAR. I CONFRONT HIM, HE DENIES IT, SO I SAY LETS GO ASKS HER, HE DOESN;T WANT TO THAT EITHER, AT THIS POINT I AM 7 MONTHS PREG,TIRED, UGLY, FAT, AND DONE WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP. SEVERAL DAYS LATER HE PLEADS HIS CASE TO ME, STILL DENYING. SHE WRITES A LETTER TO ME STATING THAT SHE IS SORRY, AND SHE TELLS ME SHE HAD TO MAKE UP SOMETHING BECAUSE HE TELLS HER HE WAS AFRIAD THAT I WOULDN’T LET HIM SEE HIS CHILD. I TAKE HIM BACK. I’M SCARED THAT I JUST MADE THE WRONG DECISION BUT IM ALSO SCARED OF WHAT WAS AHEAD OF ME WITH THIS BABY. I DELIVER MY BABY WE MOVE IN TOGETHER, I BUY A CAR, FIND WORK AND HE DOESN’T. HIS WHOLE PERSONALITY CHANGES WE BEGAN TO ARGUE ALL THE TIME, HE DOESN’T HELP KEEP THE BABY WHILE I’M AWAY A WORK. HE SAYS HE IS A FOOTBALL PLAYER, AND WE NEED OUR REST, WORKOUT TIME, SLEEP, ETC. I ENDED UP WORKING LATE SHIFTS AT SUBWAY, WITH NO BABY SITTER, MY MANAGER REALLY NEEDED HELP ON THE JOB, SO HE LETS ME BRING MY BABY TO WORK WITH ME, IN EXCHANGE TO CLOSE THE STORE AT 11PM AT NIGHT. MY BABY IS FED, CHANGED AND ROCKED TO SLEEP IN HER CARSEAT AT MY JOB. HER DAD THINKS HE HAS A SHOT AT FOOTABALL, SO HE MOVES TO ANOTHER CITY. WE BREAK UP I DONT HEAR FROM HIM FOR WEEKS AT A TIME, HE DOESNT SEE MY DAUGHTER FOR WEEKS. HE FINDS OUT HE CANT MAKE IT HE COMES BACK. ME NEEDING HELP I ALLOW HIM TO COME STAY WITH ME. BY THIS TIME I HAVE MY OWN PLACE, WITH MY BABY ON CAMPUS WITH MY SISTER COMING TO HELP ME OUT IN BETWEEN HER CLASSES WHEN I HAD TO GO TO CLASS. HE FINDS WORK, BUT IT IS NOT ENOUGH, SECURITY IS SOMETHING HE NEVER HAD SO HE COULDNT GIVE IT TO ME, HE ASKS FOR MY HAND IN MARRIAGE, I ACCEPT. RANDOM FLIRTING WITH DIFFERNT WOMEN, LATE NIGHT CALLS IN THE SHOWER, ETC I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE. THE LAST DRAW WAS WE HAD A BIG ARGUMENT ABOUT HIS WOMEN AND DISRESPECT IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS, HE TAKES THE RING BACK, HIS CHRISTMAS GIFTS HE BOUGHT FOR ME AND MY DAUGHTER UNDER THE TREE, CALLS THE POLICE ON ME FOR NOT LETTING HIM GET MY CAR(HE WAS THE CO-SIGNER), LOCKS ME AND MY DAUGHTER OUT OF THE HOUSE, HAVING ME KNOCK TO COME IN WITH MY DAUGHTER WHILE THE NEIGHBORS HEAR US AND JOKES ABOUT IT. THE POLICE COMES AND ESCORTS HIM OUT QUIETLY, OR HE GOES TO JAIL. THAT DAY I GAVE UP AND LET EVERYTHING GO. THAT WAS 3 YEARS AGO, I WENT ON TO FINISH COLLEGE, MY DAUGHTER STARTED HEADSTART, AND I AM CURRENTLY WORKING ON MY MASTER’S IN COUNSELING AND PSYCHOLOGY. I AM DRAWN TO HELPING PEOPLE BECAUSE I’VE HAD MY DOWN DAYS AND ALL I NEEDED WAS SOMEONE TO HELP ME, MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALY. HE IS STILL UNEMPLOYED, STILL CHASING HIS FOOTBALL CAREER, AND COMES TO SEE HER WHENEVER HE FINDS TRANSPORTATION, LEAVING HER WITH 10 DOLLARS SOMETIMES FOR THE MONTH FOR SUPPORT, LOOKING BACK ON IT BOTHERS ME STILL, BUT NOT ENOUGH FOR ME TO GIVE UP OF MAKING ME AND MY DAUGHTER FUTURE BRIGHTER. hEY! I HAVE A WONDERUFL DAUGHTER WHO NEEDS ME, AND THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING…

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MY STORY IS A YOUNG BLACK WOMAN STRUGGLE ,GROWING UP YOUNG WITH FALSE HOPES AND DREAMS WANTING NOTHING MORE IN LIFE THAN A FAMILY TO BECOME ONE DEALING WITH NEGATIVE VIBES IN YOUR HOME.AND IT STICKS WITH YOU AND AS YOU GROW UP SEEING YOUR MOTHER DEALING WITH CHILDREN ON HER OWN WITCH HAD A INPACT ON HER TO TAKE CAR OF HER CHILDREN DEALING WITH HEARTACHE AND PAIN AND YOUR CHILD GOTTA GROW UP SEEING THIS HURT AND LEAVING HOME A YOUNG AGE .NO WHERE TO TURN BUT THE STREETS LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES LONELY IN THE WORLD BUT YOU MEET A MAN THAT CHANGE YOUR WORLD TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE A WOMAN SHOULD GIVE YOU BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN FOR YOU TO TEACH THE REAL MEANING OF LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING AND THAN JUST ONE DAY YOU LOSE THAT CHILD THAT MADE YOUR WORLD BETTER AND GOD TAKE HIM HOME AT 2 YEARS AND YOU TRY TO STAY STRONG FOR THE OTHERS BUT THREW IT ALL I LEARNED IM 30 YEARS OLD AND GOD ONLY WANT ME TO BE STRONGER THAN BEFORE ,AS I GREW UP I PUT EVERYONE BEFORE ME AND FORGOT WHO I AM BECAUSE EVERYBODY CAME FIRST .NOW I GOT TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY BEFORE MAKING SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY AND THE PAIN AND EVERYTHING I LEARNED MY CHILDREN WILL KNOW AND UNDER STAND …TRUE STORY AND ONE DAY WILL MAKE ABOOK OF MY LIKE CALLED A YOUNG BLACK WOMAN STRUGGLE

My name is Terrysh and im 19 years old my story is very short not quite long like everyone else’s.I was born in california city of pomona in 1990 I never knew for my father to be around he was in and out my life but he was there and he loved me.My mom has three kids and im the youngest I have and older sister and an older brother now im all about my family I just want us all to get along growing up I really didnt understand.But all I knew was my mom only having my sister and me and my brother stayed with his father my mom tried so hard to take care of us on her own she was so strong.When I was young I use to go visit my grandma and grandpa on my dad side alot in the summer time when I was in second grade my father was arrested it was really hard for me cause all I wanted was him to be there for me.So one summer coming from my grandma and grandpa house my moms picking me up and I see she has my cousins with her I ask why they were with us and I was told that there mom was murdered by my youngest cousin who was only two at the time.We had them for about a couple months than there grandma took them in after she had them for a while they were put into a foster home after my mom heard they were in a foster home she stood up and adopted them.We adopted their older sister too Ill say like a month after I found out my grandpa died I didnt know how to show emotions cause here I see my mother struggling to take care of five girls while also trying to get her son into her own custody.My mom went on and worked two jobs trying to support her I can see the weakness in her eyes but she never gave up.She than got custody of her son thats when my life changed after that my sister and my brother never got along so them fighting never took me by surprise.But the day I saw my brother put his hands on my mom and my sister scared me half to death nothing is more heart breaking than you seeing your mom and sister get hit over and over by someone you love.My brother broke my heart for what he did to my family we will never be the same again because its hard to trust him again.My mom struggled so hard for us to have a good life I saw the pain in her eyes and in her body and to come home and get hurt killed me.My family is not the same anymore I know we never were on good terms but my heart breaks for all of us who cant get it togehter and just love eachother.I just want the best for my family I want us to love eachother cause without them I have nothing.

i dropped my boyfriend of at work, kissed him goodbye, and told him i would see him when he got off work. he told me not to worry about picking him up one of his co-workers would drop him off that evening and that he loved me. well needless to say his co-worker dropped him off a week later when he came to get his stuff because he had gotten married

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I have been dating a man off and on for 8 years, and we have a son together. He has been dating his ex-girlfriend everytime him and I break up. While when I was pregnant with his son he swore to me that he just wanted me and wanted us to be a happy family. He even went out and brought me a diamond ring. I was happy…you see I didn’t believe in love or trust men, because I was sexually molested as a child. When my mother found out about the abuse she fought my step-father and I can remember him bitting her chest so hard it bleed. Well needless to say a few weeks later he was back in the house and it was business as usual. My mother choose to ignore her daughters and allow this man to do this. So I never trusted man, until my boyfriend came into my life. Well about 2 months after I had our son, I found out that he was seeing her again. He came back apologizing and here we are 3 yrs later and I just found out by looking at phone records he is seeing her again. I feel so hurt and ugly. As a plus size woman it’s hard enough to find a man that will love you for you, but to find someone who uses you as an option instead of a person he loves its difficult and hard to understand. I’m praying about my lack of trust in men and for my ability to forgive my mother and step-father as well. Thank you for allowing me to share my story.

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hi pretty……………
my name is becky am 20 years old
I have just read some stories and I would like to tell you mine. I met a lovely man that advertised for a long term relationship. I did not reply to his but vica versa. I answered his email on the 25th May 01 and after swapping stories we swapped mobile numbers and we spent one weekend sending love messages to each other, then on Monday last week he phoned me and we spoke for the first time. He told me he loved me, I was what he was looking for etc. Things became very intense, he even planted red roses in his garden, neither of us could sleep, we were emailing, texting and talking over the phone constantly.

Then we decided to meet for lunch. He met me at the railway station holding a dozen red roses in his hands. He also gave me a single white rose in a gold box – romance was in the air. On meeting we felt that we already knew each other, and although we were both nervous we enjoyed each others company. He started making plans for the future and I foolishly listened.

Two days later after very little contact I knew something was wrong, he text me to say he would email me on the Monday and I knew then that it was over before it had begun. And sure enough Monday morning he was waiting for me. He did not want to continue with the relationship as he was not ready and felt like he was drowning, he blamed me I did nothing he did all the chasing. I was heart broken and could not believe a human being who is suppose to be kind, caring etc. could treat me that way. I cried for days after days, I threw out the flowers he gave me, and I could not sleep. I was in shock. I could not understand why he emailed me in the first place if his intentions were not honest. So let other ladies be aware, do not be fooled by ‘knights in shining armour’ who fall in love with you before they meet you. The feeling I had was so bad I decided that no more did I want to know any men, but surely there are decent men out there somewhere.

Hello My name is Dee and I would like to share my story in poetry form. I wrote this in 2007, now I am saved and loving the life God has opened up for me. Smooches!!

** TRUE STORY**

He asked her a question
YES was the reply
every woman’s dream
yet it ended up being a lie
she told all of her friends
congratulations was in order
how happy her mother was
for her beautiful daughter
He was the one who set the date
He was the one so excited
hotels to book plans to make
all the family will be invited
should have seen the ring yall
2 carat Marquise cut
simple girl taken aback
she thought it was a bit much
the ladies got together
made it a date to find her gown
beautiful in the mirror
but under the veil a frown
something wasn’t quite right
she felt it in her soul
this is the dress but hold it for me
is what the sales woman was told
she dialed his phone to tell her future
all about the find
to her surprise someone picked up
another woman was on the line
3 1/2 years of her life shattered as
the phone hit the floor
the woman on the other end changed the game
see they had already been married 4
the ring she described too a tee
cause she had seen it before
it belonged to her but swollen with his seed
she could not fit it anymore
She had met the family spent holidays
and no one said a word
sang Christmas songs went to church
she even helped auntie cook the bird
She was the other woman and everyone knew
yet no one said a thing
if she had known what was real
she would have never accepted the ring
Don’t worry she’s doing better now
actually she is doing great
She takes it one day at a time
and tries to meditate
This was not Lifetime honey
I swear this is all true
because I am she and she is me
Now I’ve passed my story on to you.
-Danielle
copyright@ 2007

Hello my name is LaAsja. I was in a relationship with the father of my child for 7yr. Then all of suddon he wanna call it quits. I really, really loved and cared about him. Of course every relationships have there up and downs. But I don’t think I deserve what I got from him. I was always fair and kind and loving to him. I am the mother of his child. We both almost lost our lives. I had preeclamisa. And after my child was born everything went down the drain. Alot of stress and broken-hearted girl. I deserve better than that. My daughter and deserve better. And the drama is still going on.

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so i was dating this guy for 4 yrs on again and off again loved him with all my heart and the first year of out relationship he lived not too far in a college town and i knew i could see him at anytime one day i got an email from a young lady asking what the nature of the relationship between he and i was, being the woman i am i never responded to the young lady i went to him and with in a month he moved to the city i lived in. for the next 3 years we are on again off again and i was seeing another person on out offs. i tried to move on with the other man but something kept pulling me back so we were on again. the last off he sent a text at about 4 am telling me he was going to be a farther while we were working on being on again and i accepted that he was going to be a farther so we’re on yet AGAIN. he told me the news on his birthday so i couldn’t be mad at him we were on a OFF at the point, so a few months roll pass and i decided i can’t deal with baby daddy i like my own attention to myself so we’re OFF, but that didn’t last long we were in love or so i thought here we go ON yet again. so my friend starts dating a guy and he tells her i look familiar and he puts me with the guy and my friend tells her man yeah that’s her man he he tells my friend that my man is MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!! me being the woman i am i don’t tell my man a thing just loving him as usual trying to pick up on the details of a married (you would think i would know that signs seeing as my dad cheated on mom for years) but i don’t see it. so i go to the harris county website and look it up (that’s public record you know) and there it was in black and white a marriage liscense and he was married the day after his birthday and he only told me about the child not the marriage and he’s married to the young lady who sent me the email, and they’ve been married for a year so i facebook’d and myspace’d her to see what she looks like, i’ve embeded her face into memory so if i ever see her i have my speech all laid out, and then i tell him i know he’s married . he says it’s true but it’s only becaue the pastor forced him. (yeah right i believe that) he only wants to be with me he admires the woman i am and has loved me for the past 4 years. but what the most heart breaking thing, i see her at least twice week she’s a cashier at the local gorcery store she looks so sweet and very friendly i wonder if she knows who i am. i sure as hell know who she is. but i never say a work it isn’t her fault her husband is sc**, and from what i hear he doesn’t take her anywhere he’s embarrassed of her and his friends like me better, so i buy my gorceries, ignore is calls and smile and speak when i see her but always making sure when i go to the grocery store i look my best so just incase she knows who i am i never wanna look bad.

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I do not care about the dress either, I just want to share a story to help inspire other women not to go through what I endured due to a my mother’s inability to pay attention. When I was 13 years old my mom’s “husband” as she called him began to tough me. As a child I was not told that no one is supposed to touch you or do things to you. The touching to sexual abuse and a “relaionship” as he called by the time I was 17. Once he got me pregnant, I couldn’t take it anymore, one I had a miscarriage I told my mother what happened and she has the f***ing nerve to say it was all made up. I actually thought at one time that he would leave me for her. He is now 50, I am 26 now, happily married with a family of my own. I just wish that someone would have listened to me when I tried to tell what them.

Young Women, never be afraid to ask for help if you are being abused.

here is my story.. i was 14 years old when i thought that i would true love..boy i was wrong.. her started abusing me daily and did not stop. he would hit me everyday when we could come back from outside or from school. his mom knew he did that and didnt do nothing to stop it.. the only thing i could do was move away from him as soon as possible.then when i turned 20 i met someone else that i fell in love with very quickly.. i thought everything had changed but it didnt. it was okay for about a month and then it started changing like that..he would tell me that i couldnt go no where,see none of my family or my friends. and when i told him no he would hit me and try to break my arms or leg… i feared that the only was for me to leave him was in a body bag. i did exactly just what my aunt told me to do.. i left him and called the police and they came and arrested him.. that was two years ago when that happend.. ever since i have not been able to trust another guy or love another one like i loved him in fear for the same thing that he did to me..

IMA START OFF BY SAYING HEY BEYONCE! ONE OF THE MANY HEART BREAKS WAS WHEN I FELL IN LOVE WITH THIS GIRL AND SHE KEPT IT A SECRET B/C HER FAMILY DIDNT LIKE THE IDEA OF HER LOVING ANOTHER WOMAN IN A SEXUAL WAY WHEN I NEVER DID ANYTHING BUT LOVE HER AND ITS SO SAD B/C SHE WOULD LIE 2 ME EVERYDAY ABOUT SOMETHING JUST LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE . SHE WOULD GO OVER HER MAMAS AND WOULDNT ANSWER MY CALLS ALL FOR HER (CAUSE SHE AINT GOT A MAN) LOL AND JUST ACT AS IF I WASNT THERE, I MEAN ASHAMED TO BE GAY AN I EXCEPTED IT CAUSE I LOVED HER EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS AN PLUS I LIVED WITH HER UNDER THESE CIRC**STANCES WITH THE LONEY DAYS AND NIGHTS NO ROMANCE I MEAN NOTHING BUT DISAPOINTMENTS AN QUICKYS. I JUST DIDNT KNOW HOW TO LET GO OF THIS WOMAN I FELL SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH AN THAT I’VE KNOWN FOR YEARS AND WERE GOOD FRIENDS BEFORE LOVERS AN THINGS . I KEPT PRAYING AN KEPT MY HEAD UP IN HOPES FOR A CHANGE BUT GOT WORST,AN IT WAS ARGUING EVERYDAY FIGHTING OVER HER MOTHER WANTING HER ALL TO HER SELF, AN ALSO HER CLUBING WEEKENDS WHILE IN THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH ME .

I really don’t think that was fair for her to win it jus because her baby died.If thats the case i should talked about me losen twins.Beyonce did not say talk about ur dide kids….P.S. Now this is a borken heart

my heart was broken many times the one that was bad was in 2007 the father of my baby girl and 3 years was never coming home did not want me around. he was staying at friends houses and telling me it was bec he could not handle waking up 2 the baby crying he was not ready for this. i seen in his phone he was talking 2 my friend and i seen some text he told me he would stop texting her and then a week later i came home 2 my best friend running into my daughters room naked he stopped me and said plz dont im sorry i just dont want 2 be with one girl right now i want 2 have fun and i cant do that with u and the baby right beside me i cant handle the crying and stuff. he left me and the baby that night. he had nothing 2 do with us for about 4 months then he came out of no where and stole her and will not let me see her. there is nothing i can do until i get money saved to get a lawyer. the last time i was with my boyfriend of almost a year and he left me bec he was talking 2 a lady about his family problems when i found out i asked him y he could not talk 2 me he said it was just different with her she was older and had been through it. he told me not 2 worry she was 10 years older and had a husband and kids. he also said if i dont want 2 be with u then u will know! he left me the next day. i have yet 2 get over the last one its killing me inside!! we had so many memories and he was the one that helped me up the one u think u cant live with out was helping me get on my feet and made me happy! i have lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks and i feel as im falling apart and i cant get up!